Tuxedo Sam of Shedtwt

Personal Diary
HW: 223 Cw: 174.8lbs Lw: 110 Gw: 100

[Tuxedo Sam of Shedtwt @sagee1203]

@Sicklysweetrot exactly like just enjoy that i’m with you and not comment on my weight

[Tuxedo Sam of Shedtwt @sagee1203]

visited my parents after two weeks of not seeing them (i see them once a month usually) my dad said “jesus you are looking so skinny” which i don’t understand can i’m a health weight and don’t look skinny at all 😭😭

[Tuxedo Sam of Shedtwt @sagee1203]

i hate the hospital they did nothing an blamed my flu as withdrawals from weed like ik the difference between the flu and withdrawals and didn’t offer any help

[Tuxedo Sam of Shedtwt @sagee1203]

i hate being in hospital omg this is awful

[Tuxedo Sam of Shedtwt @sagee1203]

@Sicklysweetrot of course!!

[Tuxedo Sam of Shedtwt @sagee1203]

Me now 178 (80kg) vs my lw of 110? (49kg) i was also 3-4 inches shorter how could i let myself go 😭 im also so bloated omg

[Tuxedo Sam of Shedtwt @sagee1203]

after losing weight i’m terrified of gaining even a pound if i do, i go on extreme fasts or heavy restriction. it feels silly to be so scared but i cry every time and feel so guilty and disgusting like i don’t ever deserve to eat again

[Tuxedo Sam of Shedtwt @sagee1203]

@loves1cklbs 17lbs/7.7 kg

[Tuxedo Sam of Shedtwt @sagee1203]

had to end my fast sadly only 20 hours early cause i keep puking, i broke it with pretzels

[Tuxedo Sam of Shedtwt @sagee1203]

Tw body check

i still look like i’m 220 lbs omg i thought losing almost 60lbs i would look skinny but i still look like a whale i wanna cry why do i have to be so fat and ugly

[Tuxedo Sam of Shedtwt @sagee1203]

OMG i hit a normal bmi i haven’t seen a normal bmi since like two years ago!!! i haven’t been this weight since i was 16 i can’t believe it honestly 😭😭

[Tuxedo Sam of Shedtwt @sagee1203]

@ramonasdiary 12lbs/5.4 kg

[Tuxedo Sam of Shedtwt @sagee1203]

going to break my roughly 8 fast on friday with french fries since i have to drive two an half hours home

[Tuxedo Sam of Shedtwt @sagee1203]

@babyteethrot smelling alcohol can help, cold water, ginger\peppermint tea, dramamine you can get at any pharmacy, salt like pretzels or something can also help

[Tuxedo Sam of Shedtwt @sagee1203]

i miss my cat so much i keep crying hopefully i can visit home this weekend and see him. A little photo of my chunky monkey

[Tuxedo Sam of Shedtwt @sagee1203]

i don’t think i’ll ever be able to loss weight in a normal way both times i’ve tried i developed/relapsed an ed

[Nox @Noxxer0]

Id rather hate myself and be skinny than hate myself and be fat

[Tuxedo Sam of Shedtwt @sagee1203]

@lesbo_princesss 138 atm and i still have 50 hours till my fast is over

[୨୧ 𝚜𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚢 ୨୧ @suIIydoIIy]

The concept of me losing over 50lbs and still looking the exact same

[Tuxedo Sam of Shedtwt @sagee1203]

i feel so weak, my ribs hurt, i’m having horrible chest pains and can barely move. I’ve been bed rotting for 4 days straight