not april

— beauty is earned 🍓 fueled by caffeine and spite

[not april @satanicbmi]

hi guys ik i haven’t posted here in a while. things got pretty bad for me mentally. anyways ive decided to attempt recovery. my hair has been falling out like crazy and i havent had my period in 4 months. idk im just tired at this point. maybe in recovery i’ll finally be happy 🫶🏼

[not april @satanicbmi]

chamomile tea before bed was such a good habit to pick up this shit has me drowsy halfway through the cup

[not april @satanicbmi]

@punishercrime fr! it’s such a staple at cypriot dinner tables tho

[not april @satanicbmi]

@punishercrime i love beats and greek yogurt but never thought to have them together like this omg i totally get how good it must’ve been 🫶🏼

[not april @satanicbmi]

@safariistarr felt that

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y’all i’m only one bite in and it legitimately brought tears to my eyes. this is the best ice cream i’ve ever tasted. there’s even crumbled pieces of actual caramelized biscuit in it. oh my godddddddd

[not april @satanicbmi]

y’all have no idea the trials and tribulations i’ve gone through to get to this point

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@bugpussyy thank you aw ❤️

[not april @satanicbmi]

during my hiatus i was rushing to the store + needed a pair of jeans so i grabbed what i thought was my old bf style jeans. put them on & went “theyre a lil too baggy now” but when i looked in the mirror i realized they werent my old bf style jeans, these were my old skinny jeans

[not april @satanicbmi]

@Thebitchboi1 thank you angel ! i’m actually around 62 pounds down now ❤️

[not april @satanicbmi]

got tired of waiting so even tho i’m not at my goal i’m posting my body checks…
May 19th 2023 - August 6th 2023
BMI 28 - BMI 19
same outfit and tried to copy the pose even tho it’s tricky in my new place
pls be nice 🫶🏼

[not april @satanicbmi]

gonna pace until i hit 10K steps first tho so i feel like i’ve earned it

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ok update i’ve decided to just get over myself and let myself have the damn thing after my shower

[not april @satanicbmi]

ok update i’ve decided to just get over myself and let myself have the damn thing after my shower

[not april @satanicbmi]

not me considering chickening out of the caramelized biscuit ice cream because guilt is setting in before i’ve even began to eat it. i mean i’m not eating it till a bit later anyways but…. am i ?

[not april @satanicbmi]

fuck man but i’ve k1lled myself ALL DAY for this it’s not fair

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not me considering chickening out of the caramelized biscuit ice cream because guilt is setting in before i’ve even began to eat it. i mean i’m not eating it till a bit later anyways but…. am i ?

[not april @satanicbmi]

i’m just sitting here looking at my stomach and it’s all bloated and gross and i’m just like why tf would i eat 450 calories in ice cream looking like that yk

[not april @satanicbmi]

@bonieats that is the best looking cucumber i’ve ever seen in my life omg

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@draculaurakcals i’m sorry to hear that. we had home economics in elementary too and they taught us to bake and sew. that’s the main reason i know how to sew now.

[not april @satanicbmi]

yo i remember doing the exact same thing in high school expect they didn’t ask for us to add the calories so i just “estimated what i thought a normal person would eat” and got sent to the school counselor of not eating enough on my imaginary bulked up meal plan 😭😭

[not april @satanicbmi]

@draculaurakcals yea we had this in highschool home economics. it was only 2-3 classes worth of learning the bmi scale, diff diets across the world (ex: mediterranean) and calories/macros. then they made us write down what we ate for one day. but they taught us about other things in the class too

[not april @satanicbmi]

@dollcore_cals aw thank you 🫶🏼

[not april @satanicbmi]

starting to journal has legit healed something in me and helps me so so much on a daily basis i already filled a whole notebook and i’m tearing through the second one like nobody’s business

[not april @satanicbmi]

@punishercrime omg actually dates in general is such a lightbulb moment because i totally get what you’re saying how it has that same flavor profile and i think i could really enjoy cutting a few dates into the oats 😱

[not april @satanicbmi]

ok whats a good oatmeal topping ? i use crushed up cereal bars bc i want that crunchy sweet chocolatey vibe for the topping. granola/cereal is out of the question bc if it’s in the house i will b/p the entire box. but 2 cereal bars is 132cals which is more than the oatmeal itself