FORMS: an abstract photography collection on 8x10 film, performed in camera with multiple exposures. No digital manipulation was used to create these images.
This is 40.
Carl Jung called it the afternoon of life, where achievement yields and gives way to meaning, where presence becomes the masterpiece.
Some say forty is when wisdom begins. I don’t know if I’m wise, but I know I’m still here, still learning, still curious, still listening.
I can see the greys slowly coming in.
Every day the lines on my face are a little more marked, as if every frown and every smile leave an imprint, a map of what it means to feel.
These past years have stripped me bare.
I have lost and mourned and lost again.
The lows were treacherous. I’ve cried more than I thought a life could hold.
And still, I’m proud of me. Of the resilience, the one-day-at-a-time, the stubborn choice to answer life’s challenges with love and compassion whenever I could.
What I know for certain: so far I have lived to the edges of my capacity. I’ve traveled to places I once only dreamed of. Some I didn’t know existed when I was a kid in Caracas. I’ve met extraordinary people throughout my journey. Many of them I’m honored to call my friends.
My biggest flexes are simple:
I’ve tried to meet everyone with kindness.
I’ve made art that might have ignited the flame of creativity in someone.
And I’ve changed a few lives for the better.
Growing older is a privilege. After experiencing so much death around me all my life, every minute of this physical life is precious beyond words. I don’t take any of it for granted.
These days I’m deeply into metaphysics, into the Hermetic principles, into alchemy, into the wisdom of the ancients, and into living a life aligned with the cosmos. I’ve lived and witnessed things most people would call magic. I’ve had more than one prophetic dream, and I’ve had moments of feeling the unity with all, with Source. I’ve experienced ego death and tapped into unseen energies. These are the things that move me. All I want is to live a conscious life, to raise not only my own frequency, but, in whatever small way, the frequency of all humanity.
To that end, I’m endlessly grateful for every single one of you who follows my journey here. For your attention and your energy.
I was originally going to write “40 things I learned by 40,” and maybe I still might, but honestly it all distills to this:
Be present. Love deeply. Practice gratitude.
Care for your mind and your body.
Remember that death is certain. Let that certainty make life more sacred, not more afraid.
These photos are my favorite ever made of me, and of course they are by my dearest brother, my comrade forever, @seandtweets . He has made all of my favorite portraits for the last ten years. If you want to give me a birthday gift, go follow him. The process of making these is an art unto itself, and I couldn’t be more honored to be seen and immortalized by his lens through these.
If you made it all the way here, thank you. 🙏🏽