Mac

Hi Fuckers! So since my little personal page has changed into something I never anticipated and there are so many new people here, let me give you a brief rundown of who I am and what to expect and not expect from me and this page and maybe answer some questions you might have. FYI I want to keep this up and pinned to my page for awhile, so I will try to post my schedule, things I am doing and updates in replies to this pinned post. If you want to heard about what is currently going on in my life, that is where you will find it in future. Before I tell you about myself, let me answer some questions everyone seems to have: 1. NO I don’t have an OF or Fansly or whatever 2. NO I don’t do content 3. NO I don’t want to do content 4. NO I don’t want to just meet up and fuck. 5. NO I don’t want your money 6. Yes, I have turned off my DM’s (The number of DM’s I was getting was stupid and made X very unenjoyable for me. My trust was also breached and it was turn off DM’s to delete the page, so I tried turning off to start. If you want to know more, read below). I am now enjoying X and this page much more while being able to communicate with you all in the threads and I intend to keep things this way, at least for a while and for my sanity. 7. I do have a few people in DM’s, 2 who are RL friends and I told about this page and someone who is helping me learn about X and how to use it because as of 2 weeks ago I had zero experience with making or running a page. I may let these people post things for me at some point in the future and if I do, I will let you know. 8. Yes, everything I write in my little snippets before the videos I post are true. I do spice them up a bit to make them more fun, but I have not been lying about what I have done or the things I would like to do. 9. In case you have not figured it out, I like to be lighthearted, to tease, to flirt a bit, be sarcastic and have some fun in my post comments. Please take everything I might say to you in a lighthearted way and PLEASE DON’T MAKE THIS WEIRD. Ok now that is out of the way, as I mentioned, I turned off my DM’s and I am totally new to X and whatever this page is becoming. I have never been a social media person and I hate Insta girls, etc. TBH I have an old twitter account I just used for scrolling news mostly and then I found porn on X. I liked how I could just scroll though like Tiktok until I found what I liked and then move on to the next things. I hated the favorite/Bookmark system and how hard it was to find videos that I liked. I also wanted to explore some of the kinks that I have been developing over the past 8 months now. So I Figured wtf and 2 weeks ago I created this page with the plan I would just RT my favorite videos so I could find them easier in future. That is all I wanted or expected from my page. What it has become over the last two weeks something totally different that I did not anticipate or want and I am trying to see if I really like it, or if I should just end the whole thing now. I was very close to deleting the page 2 and most recently on Monday. I had broken some of my own rules and posted photos of myself (without my face) and a video had gotten posted of me with my face getting my ass plowed that I did not approve or consent to. Luckily I think it was removed before any real damage was done, but I wont know maybe for awhile or ever for that matter. The 2nd time where I was even closer to deleting was on Monday. The night before I had shared some things with someone I thought I had grown to trust and that was a mistake. After sending those things, I discovered the next day the had deleted their account. At that point I was ready to delete my page but was convinced to just turn off DM’s and see how things went. I ended up going that route and also deleted all the photos I had posted of myself as I was not feeling safe or like sharing anymore. I may post some more pics or maybe videos in future but for the time being, you are getting 1 pic here and that might be it for a long time. Turning off the DM’s ended up being the best decision. Since I have done that I have had lots of fun with you in the comments Who am I, well up until almost 8 months ago I was your standard 26yr old gal in a pretty happy 3year relationship with a guy in his mid-30s. I have a career and my BF is loving, attentive and provides me with a lot of emotional support & fulfillment. I don’t want to get all gushy but life was pretty good and very stable. That changed one night after we had a fight about going to a friend’s house party. I wanted to stay home and Netflix & Chill and he wanted to go. We ended up going and he got blackout drunk and passed out on a couch downstairs. I on the other hand, got really mad at him, got drunk myself and ended up in the guest bathroom upstairs getting plowed from behind watching in the mirror as one of my BF’s oldest friends pounded me in oblivion. I may tell the full story sometime, including how this all came to happen, honestly I still am not sure how I allowed things to go that far, but they did. The biggest problem was that it was some of the best sex of my life. Fast forward 2 weeks of me being filled with shame, crying all night, hating myself for what I had done and trying to find some way to fix things. My BF didn’t know it happened, but I did and that was enough. Nothing was working and I was a fucking basket case filled with guilt. That was the first time I have ever cheated on anyone in my life. I finally called the friend I had cheated on my BF with and arranged to meet him so we could discuss and I could get closure. Unfortunately, I did not get the closure I was looking for, instead I ended up at his place getting my guts rearranged until like 4am. This time it was all my fault, at least that is how I saw it. I went to him, I was sober, I didn’t have any excuses I could make and the sex was out of this world good. Since that time I have been basically cheating on my BF about twice a week the last 8 months until last Friday when he posted a video he took on my phone onto this page of him blowing out my asshole and cum shooting out my ass. That and a text he sent the next day that my BF almost saw that would have ended our relationship were the final straw and I ended this with him. So I am now trying to sort through all the emotions and emotional damage I have created. I have learned a lot about myself and my sexual needs and desires over the past 8 months. Where I used to be more vanilla in bed and still am with my BF, through cheating and great sex I have learned I love anal, I love to be dominated, I love to submit and I love some rough play. I am sill figuring these things out and what that means to me. BUT (and this is important to everyone new) all of those things are very much tied to my having an intimate and emotional relationship with the person I am experiencing them with, not with a stranger or someone in my DM’s who just wants me to talk dirty to get them off. I have not interest in being a internet strangers personal cumslut fucktoy. So if you approach me like that, I will probably give you a chance and try to deflect, but if you keep at it I will block you and go on my merry way. Anyways, this was a lot to write and I am sure almost no one is going to bother reading it, but as I said, I am just learning how all this works and trying to keep this page fun for ME. If I am not having fun then I will just delete and leave. Unlike all the OF girls out that begging you for your money, I am not going to do that, whatever it is that I am doing on this page (I sure as shit have not figured that out yet) I am doing for free and because I have discovered I like to share my filthy mind behind the anonymity of this page, but I also don’t owe you anything. So if you enjoy what I post, write, how I act, etc then please stick around and let’s have some kinky fun. If you want something else, you might want to look elsewhere. Love all you sick fuckers and keep stroking it for me bb! Beth