@jadeyxj I don't know what you're going through, but every person on that list is a reason to stay alive. There is help for you. You can get better even if it doesn't feel like it now. I know I'm a stranger, but I really hope you'll reconsider.
How ironic is it that I listened to Another One Bites the Dust by Queen and said "Today is going to be a good day" less than 10 minutes before finding out my dad died in a car accident😅 (I'm coping terribly)