cried so much but still cant make peace with the fact that the kiind of life i envision for myself remains inaccessible due to reasons beyond my control
BAEKHYUN REVERIE DOT ENCORE DAY 3
🐶: Since this is the final concert, I kept hearing people say, ‘Baekhyun is definitely going to cry.’
And honestly… I don’t like seeing Baekhyun cry because it hurts my heart…but at the same time, I kind of wanted to see it.
But I don’t know why… the tears just won’t come. Why am I smiling like this? What is this? I really don’t know why.
I think it’s just not time for me to cry yet. Maybe it’s not the moment. It feels like I still have a long road ahead, and when everything is more perfectly put together, that’s when I’ll cry properly in front of you.
So when that day comes and I cry really hard, please don’t dislike me for it, okay?
While being active, a lot of things have happened, but even going through all of that, I realized I wasn’t crying in front of you. I think it’s because I wanted to be a stronger, more reliable support for you.
I want you to think, ‘No matter what happens, Baekhyun doesn’t waver. We worry about him, but he’s really strong.’
That’s the kind of thing I like hearing the most. And I’ll continue to be that person.
I’ll work even harder and protect you all.
So you can cry, you can come into my arms, and I’ll always be here, arms wide open, like a scarecrow… well, maybe not a scarecrow…like a cool mannequin. I’ll always be standing right here. (jokingly)
Whenever you’re tired, lean on me. Okay?
Don’t be disappointed that I didn’t cry today.
To be honest, maybe it’s because of the instrumental, but I held back tears about three times already.
Why are you crying? Don’t cry.
My parents are here today too! if they saw me cry, it would probably break their hearts, because they know how hard I’ve worked.
I love you.
Happy New Year from both of us ❤️@marktuan
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กอดคนตัวเองบ้าง เก่งมากแล้วที่ผ่านทุกอย่างมาได้ Bye, 2025 🤍
Next year, may you get to eat lots of delicious food.
May you remember to appreciate yourself more.
Give yourself a hug once in a while, you’ve done so well making it through everything.
Bye, 2025 🤍