i realized that no one, not even my mother or closest friends knows what i’m actually like in the inside of my head, and the only person who actually knows who i am is me
A lot of people are secretly terrified of actually healing because their depression has become their ultimate comfort zone. When you are deeply sad, society expects absolutely nothing from you. Healing requires discipline, routines, accountability, and showing up for life. People will actively self-sabotage a healthy relationship or a good opportunity because the pressure of being a functioning, happy adult is way scarier than sitting in a familiar dark room.
the lioness doesn’t concern herself with the fact that she can’t rly remember most of her days or what she’s done the last few weeks or that there are large gaps in her memory & how all the days blend together into one dark mass of emptiness ok maybe she’s slightly concerned
I heard a therapist say, “Your feelings are always valid, your behavior is not.” She explained by saying feel what you feel BUT you need to be accountable for what you do as a result of those feelings.
my therapist told me, "stop assuming people are mad at you. Stop attempting to read people's minds. stop trying to manage the thoughts and emotions of others. let people be in charge of themselves. if they have something to say to you they will and if they don't it is their responsibility not yours. overthinking kills happiness" and that hit me like a brick.