maxtravelstheworld

Professional procrastinator

[maxtravelstheworld @sijuoengee]

All I need is time and opportunities to fix my mistakes. Wish everything will be okay, I need to find a way out of this. As long as I figure out a path, I can make it better.

[maxtravelstheworld @sijuoengee]

I’m having a crisis right now, (almost) everything is falling out of control and sometimes I nearly lost it. Don’t know how long I can endure this but really wish I could explode all this toxic energy into something. Maybe it’s time to hit back in the gym :(

[maxtravelstheworld @sijuoengee]

I know it was my fault. I should have done everything more carefully and according to procedure. On my defense, there are so many things to do with so little time. However, if all other pursers can do it then I can do it too, just need to fix my awareness and ask for help

[maxtravelstheworld @sijuoengee]

@hocheolah Tiền du lịch lỡ dành hết vào mua sắm quần áo :)))

[maxtravelstheworld @sijuoengee]

@hocheolah Mẹ hãy suggest 1 số trò 😭

[maxtravelstheworld @sijuoengee]

@hocheolah Em thử rồi đó mẹ mà thấy cũng không hợp lắm cả không vui lắm nên thôi lại chờ người tiếp theo phù hợp hơn :)))

[maxtravelstheworld @sijuoengee]

So with that said, I'm fine now. My life is finally back on track. Not as happy as before we met but I'm getting there. Soon!

[maxtravelstheworld @sijuoengee]

Do I still love you? Not much. Do I still hate you? Not much. Do I think that I was acting stupid or regret what I did to you? A little of both but also not much because whatever I did was all approved by you, until you changed your damn mind

[maxtravelstheworld @sijuoengee]

I miss you sometimes, I do, but not as vividly like before. I can't even recall a memory of mine with you in it that makes me sad anymore. Everything is, like I said, blurry. I don't want to get you back. Neither do I need you as a friend

[maxtravelstheworld @sijuoengee]

I stopped counting days because everything I remember of you is now blurry. They say there are 4 stages of break up: Erasing bad memories, erasing good memories, missing ex and moving on. I think I'm somewhere near the last one

[maxtravelstheworld @sijuoengee]

@apricaught Red

[maxtravelstheworld @sijuoengee]

I had so much fun, hope the others weren't annoyed too much by me. Still hate being hangover tho bc it's so tired but sometimes it's okay to let it be once in a while. However, I won't risk myself to drink that much in a long long time, hangover just sucks LOOL

[maxtravelstheworld @sijuoengee]

Usually I can drink more than this but still keep my shit together. Probably it's true that tolerance depends on feeling and mixing drinks is a bad idea.

[maxtravelstheworld @sijuoengee]

Today I woke up with minimal headache but zero thought about him. I feel blessed because only I was drunk and got taken care of by others while normally I am the baby sitter. Last night I was able to drink and forget about the world, which I wanted to do, for the first time

[maxtravelstheworld @sijuoengee]

Last night I got so wasted, puked several times and couldn't even walk straight. I hate being drunk but I did have the time of my life. Although now I alr moved on but getting wasted did help me forgetting everything even just for a moment

[maxtravelstheworld @sijuoengee]

@amiandough @ingridnycklemoe @apricaught If I can go back here I think I'll be happy again

[maxtravelstheworld @sijuoengee]

Well I can only assume that you don't suffer that much and you just hope one day I will be nice to you again but whether that day comes or not, it doesn't affect your life much. Well maybe that's it. I'm just one of the "them" in your stories. Someone you used to know.

[maxtravelstheworld @sijuoengee]

I thought I was special and even now I still think doing it this way will make some difference for us. But yeah idk. I just can't look at you right now. Idk if you want me to be your friend again or I just faded out of your life despite all we had

[maxtravelstheworld @sijuoengee]

I admit that 80% of time I did try to become you without I realizing it. Honestly I want to punish you by silence treatment. You need to understand that time can't heal the lost of trust. It's difficult and can never be healed unless you try to prove me I'm wrong

[maxtravelstheworld @sijuoengee]

I love how your body is dreamily proportioned with long legs and broad shoulders. I love how I felt so protective in your arms. I wish I could have been as rich as you, to never worry about money. I wish I lived alone in my own house