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[Edmund @Kulambq]

'I can get excitement watching rain on a puddle. And then I paint it. Now, I admit, there are not too many people who would find that exciting. But I would. And I want life thrilling and rich. And it is. I make sure it is.'

David Hockney

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@toheartrising omg thank you 🥹

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endlessly fascinated by ppl who dedicate themselves so wholeheartedly to their craft. i love love love witnessing the physical manifestation of years and years of devotion, the passion, dedication and effort they pour into their craft it’s so inspiring

[Edmund @Kulambq]

'Study at a college, a period of leisure and study and reflection at a sensitive period, is the readiest instrument by which to find yourself and your work.'

Wallace Stevens

[🌸 @silverdoe17]

@_smcf so sorry for your loss :c 🫂

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is it really a time problem? i keep overestimating the energy i have, and end up guilt tripping myself or doing things that lets me zone out because i can’t make myself focus on things that i care about. but if i really did care, wouldn’t i have mustered up the energy for it?

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ended up getting woken up from my nap by a work call. can’t believe i ended up spending most of my sick day still working, which got me spiraling thinking about all the other things i could be doing, all the things i want to do but never could find the time and energy for

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also i have a bunch of washi tapes from back in secondary school that i didn’t want to use because they were so precious but now i found them all melted and unusable. IM SO SAD

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100 things i did instead of drinking alcohol 🍷

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12. im home for the weekend and its been a whole week of staring at the screen all day for work and i really wanted to wind down with a glass of wine but decided not to. now im finally cleaning my room and found so many half-finished things tucked in every corner

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also spent time with my dad, then with my mom, and i hate that every time i come back i can see the age in them, and my heart breaks a little knowing that they just want me home all the time. i want to be home all the time

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i used to want to do so much. i have so many things planned. what happened to time, why do i always feel like i don’t have enough of it? why do i still feel like i don’t have enough of it all the time?

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@nobu_hibiki i love the smudges on the poster

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wouldn’t have fit my bikes into the car without my airbnb neighbours. he somehow managed to tetris-ed the bikes in and also dug out some construction glue he had on hand to help glue my shoes back together when i thought i would be shoeless all day after they fell apart 🥹🥺

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“don’t let anyone take that smile away from you”

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from the uber driver that wasn’t going to pick me up because he saw that i had two big bikes that wasn’t going to fit in his car but ended up getting me to the bike rental shop AND getting me in-n-out burger AND drove me to other places after just because he wanted to help

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after a whole two weeks of sleeping sporadically and in different places every night, it feels so good to be back on my bed again

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i think i didn’t massage the clay well because i wasn’t sure about the texture and how wet i want to make it. lets hope these don’t crumble

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feels good to be making stuff again! my first time using air dry clay and i hate it but i love how convenient it is