𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙮

25 // (𝘩𝘦/𝘩𝘪𝘮/𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺/𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮) // 𝘈𝘕 𝘣/𝘱 𝘴𝘶𝘣𝘵𝘺𝘱𝘦 𝘥𝘹 𝘫𝘶𝘭𝘺 2019 // 𝘉𝘓𝘔 // 𝘵𝘸: 𝘌𝘋 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘥𝘳𝘶𝘨𝘴

[𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙮 @skeletonj3lly]

۰𓆩༻☽.⸼ 𝙥𝙞𝙣𝙣𝙚𝙙 ⸼.☾༺𓆪۰

↬ 𝘯𝘰 𝘵𝘰𝘭𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘧𝘢𝘵𝘱𝘩𝘰𝘣𝘪𝘢, 𝘱𝘳𝘰-𝘢𝘯𝘢, 𝘰𝘳 𝘣𝘪𝘨𝘰𝘵𝘳𝘺
↬ 𝘢𝘨𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘣𝘪𝘰 𝘰𝘳 𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘤𝘩 𝘢 𝘴𝘣 ᵔᴗᵔ
↬ 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘧𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘴-𝘮𝘢𝘴𝘤 𝘮𝘰𝘰𝘵𝘴 ♡

[𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙮 @skeletonj3lly]

i feel so alone in being terrified abt my weight when most ppl here would b celebrating like,, god i fucked up

[𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙮 @skeletonj3lly]

i have no idea what i look like, i don't even look in mirrors anymore and i don't understand how i lost so much (i'm not stupid i know accidentally fasting for several days was part of it) and never noticed at all

[𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙮 @skeletonj3lly]

TW // weight nd bmi
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anyway i havent been tryna lose or paying attention to cals at all but i randomly didn't eat for like 4 days so i finally weighed today nd i'm fucking 87lbs and i cried abt it. i didn't want this, i'm scared. my bmi is fucking 13.4 i didn't want this

[𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙮 @skeletonj3lly]

lol i been lurking just have not had a single thought in days 👁👄👁

[𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙮 @skeletonj3lly]

like damn i've been "out" for like 8 years now and been on T for almost 2, at this point it has to be intentional

[𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙮 @skeletonj3lly]

oh i've also been getting misgendered constantly despite neither looking nor sounding like a woman and wearing swim trunks and a t-shirt w a binder like ?? pls i already have to present more masculine than i want to sometimes (*nb* trans-masc) and it doesn't even work :((

[𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙮 @skeletonj3lly]

i took some pics i actually like my body in but i can't post them cuz i'm nakey :(((

[𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙮 @skeletonj3lly]

also i've been eating kinda whatever nd drinking beer and i somehow haven't been bloating at all 🥰🎉 bless

[𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙮 @skeletonj3lly]

the beach hasn't actually been too bad, had a breakdown a couple days ago (after this dude kinda lowkey pressured me into taking shrooms with a bunch of loud strangers lol) and was just dead the whole next day but significantly less than average yelling this year ??

[𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙮 @skeletonj3lly]

roadtrip in my willy wonka sunglasses 🖤 (the lil crochet thing is a lighter holder i made lol, it's a mushroom when u close it !!) ☺️

[𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙮 @skeletonj3lly]

drinking nd then pulling an all-nighter is so disorienting man i'm literally begging for just one normal day plsss i'm so exhausted 😓

[𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙮 @skeletonj3lly]

nd i wonder why my stomach is upset despite the fact i haven't eaten a single non-processed bite of food in probably a year 🤔 idk it's not my fault i grew up on microwave burritos that's my comfort man 😭

[𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙮 @skeletonj3lly]

lemme tell y'all somethin rq i know it's cheesy but it's legitimately so freeing when u stop giving a shit what randos on the internet think ab u 🥰

[𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙮 @skeletonj3lly]

the bpd is screaminggg rn wtf is a healthy relationship idk her 💀

[𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙮 @skeletonj3lly]

idk he's literally a recovered anorexic himself, so idk why he'd say that if he knew it'd jus fuel the disorder but i gotta remember a lot of ppl haven't been super educated on this nd may not know better even if they've dealt w it themselves ig 😖

[𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙮 @skeletonj3lly]

aite it's been like 12 hrs since i redownloaded twt it's time to overshare 🙃

[𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙩𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙮 @skeletonj3lly]

it's so stupid now that i think ab it cuz i didn't leave for that reason i jus gradually stopped bothering w social media in general, but ig it's been so long since someone's been worried abt me 💀 idk ik it's sick, jus makes me wanna get worse aaaaaaaaaa