beech 🐭

28 // ED for 15 years and counting // 🍷⛈

[beech 🐭 @skelicide]

The only thing that’s keeping me from drinking right now is that I have to drive to the gym later

[beech 🐭 @skelicide]

Not sure why I’m back here…I thought I was doing ok

[beech 🐭 @skelicide]

Why did I come back on this app? I thought I was happy before

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Even when life is going ok, my brain keeps telling me I might as well kms

[beech 🐭 @skelicide]

I’m sorry NEW?!?

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Desperately drinking ginger tea to try to make my bloating deflate. I feel so uncomfortable like this 😭

[beech 🐭 @skelicide]

Ate too many snacks just now, so I gotta go to the gym tonight after all

[beech 🐭 @skelicide]

It takes me like two hours to work up the courage to go to the grocery store

[beech 🐭 @skelicide]

I think more of my tooth is about to crumble off 😬

[beech 🐭 @skelicide]

I should probably find a dentist for my tooth…but it doesn’t hurt, so maybe I’m fine???

[beech 🐭 @skelicide]

I hate that every single one of my paychecks is such a different amount. I’m never sure if I’m gonna have enough to pay rent. Working multiple part time jobs is cool, but this part is stressful.

[beech 🐭 @skelicide]

Maybe I should find a dentist

[beech 🐭 @skelicide]

I guess 12 years of purging has finally caught up with me…part of my tooth chipped off 😭

[beech 🐭 @skelicide]

Usually I can just purge and be fine the next day, but my tummy really hurts this time ☹️

[beech 🐭 @skelicide]

Just when I think my ed is fake, I purge and reality sets in

[beech 🐭 @skelicide]

A lady at the grocery store ran into me with her shopping cart and I was the one who apologized to HER???

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Had 700 cals of ✨expired✨ chocolate for breakfast and shockingly my tummy now hurts a lot 😅

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Spending money on rum that I should be saving for rent 😬

[beech 🐭 @skelicide]

Forced to be sober this week by my lack of money

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Too funny not to repost