lolly

i dont know how to leave this place cw 128 5’5

[lolly @slimdolly02]

Unpinning when I reach 125lbs
or BMI 20.5! ☕️

[lolly @slimdolly02]

went to to therapy for a month to make the first step in recovering from my eating disorder but all i was doing was paying £70 to be insecure about how much smaller the therapist was than me and come away feeling more depressed so i quit after 4 sessions

[lolly @slimdolly02]

okay but i genuinely wasn’t lying i haven’t counted a single calorie in a week or tracked any hours of my fast i’ve just been omading and drinking tea and im already 4lbs down im so close to my last lw

[lolly @slimdolly02]

i kinda cracked this ed thing you know, just stop counting calories, or tracking your fast and have a member of one of ur fav kpop groups leave on a random tuesday morning

[lolly @slimdolly02]

okay i had my 3 day binge and cried over pics of me at my low weight - back to liquid fasting and omad

[rayne❦☆彡 @bonethug32]

October-now
☆*:. o(≧▽≦)o .:*☆

[lolly @slimdolly02]

@aeriflvr oatmeal is such a hack 😭 it���s good cold and hot and u can add so many toppings, savoury and sweet, and still keep it under 200/300 cals i love it

[lolly @slimdolly02]

@lucaacal i think i sorted it??

[lolly @slimdolly02]

@QuinnSkin11 WE GOT THIS I BELIEVE IN US

[lolly @slimdolly02]

okay so i can kinda time this right if i grind hard enough i can be skinny for summer

[lolly @slimdolly02]

think i’m gonna weigh in over 130 tomorrow 🥲 feel so sick since looking at those pictures of myself why did i think i was fine at the weight i am, i’m so fat ???? all ive been binging on is pure sugar and fast food

[lolly @slimdolly02]

cool mum just sent me pics she took of me roller skating and my face and thighs are actually rounder than the moon so now i am triggered asf time to hardcore fast again!

[lolly @slimdolly02]

@s4wcn omg you popped up on my maintwt and i had no idea it was you 😭

[lolly @slimdolly02]

okay fell into a crappy binge cycle and went on holiday in the middle of it all but somehow maintained at 130 but i just feel like im back at square one of feeling so shit and self conscious about my body i want to fix it

[lolly @slimdolly02]

now back to over 130 in less than two weeks btw 🫩 just kill me already whatever

[lolly @slimdolly02]

IM 125 ???? HOW??? i’ve been eating so shit the last week?? i haven’t even tracked my cals bc ive been eating so much im so confused but im so happy !!

[lolly @slimdolly02]

feel sick with myself lol why can’t i just restrict normally and speedrun losing weight

[lolly @slimdolly02]

fuck man i thought id be more in control over the holidays but ive just been binging and eating shit and my meds have started messing with my cycle so now i’ve come on nearly two weeks early and my cravings have been wack

[remy @tarobunluvr]

rent free...

[lolly @slimdolly02]

IM 125 ???? HOW??? i’ve been eating so shit the last week?? i haven’t even tracked my cals bc ive been eating so much im so confused but im so happy !!

[lolly @slimdolly02]

i’ve been really struggling with eating under 1500 i hate this time of year everyone keeps giving me chocolate and trying to take me out to eat