tortellini - ed recovery

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[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

I am not losing weight anymore cuz i dont lose ✌️✌️✌️

[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

Ahh i just saw a post abt protein bars. I remember when i would ONLY keep protein bars in my room and would omad them and then would binge on protein bars 😔😔😔

[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

Is it bad what im getting out of euphoria is that i need to be very fucked up LOL

[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

Watching euphoria because i rlly want to wish my mental health luck!! Last time i did i was sooooo depressed

[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

Sigh feeling a little depressed

[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

@Thisisstupid04 Sorry u r struggling, but keep trying ur best and ignor what others say. Ppl always blame others for whats out of their control and it sucks. U will bounce back. Remember once u hit the bottom, theres only up from there.

[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

@oddeyekcal I thought it was trying to seperate eating disorder twt from eating disorder restricting twt (like the 'perfect' anas trying to hate on other eds) but after reading the comments it seems i was wrong and im thankful 😪

[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

Anyway im very suicidal rip

[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

I swear i posted smthn but i dont see it but im too high to think abt it i was crying like a bitch

[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

On one of my accs i insist i dont have discord cuz random men always be tryna add me and i almost just tweeted on it "discords down RIP"

[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

My bf gets on my ass abt smoking like plz its either "u r gonna run out" "u alrdy smoked tdy" "its too late" always making excuses so i dont smoke like u KNEW u were dating a stoner before we moved jn bro

[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

I dont have any proof though theres no proof

[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

I feel like i need to prove myself tho. I was never disordered enough, never skinny enough. I dont even care abt being skinny anymore i just want
A) my parents to stop fatshaming me
B) to prove that i was (am?) disordered
But im better i want to be better i have to be better

[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

Ugh i need to stop scrolling here tho im getting triggered. Just use this acc to post.

[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

Cant believe i had to get fat just to get tits

[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

Took my lw and height out of my bio OH YEAH OH YEAH YEAH moving on growing up recovering fr lifes great lifes great (im abt to see my family in like 3 days and ik they are gonna fatshame me!!!!)

[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

What if i turn this acc into a vent acc... i mean it basically alrdy is just ed centered

[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

Idk where to put this so imma put it here.

To all those losers who say "everyone has anxiety": anxiety disorder is not just overthinking. Its the pit in the stomach. Its feeling like im gonna throw up. Its the room spinning. Its hyperventalating crying because its too much. Ugh

[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

Tbh may log out again but idk i get fomo

[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

I WALKED INTO MY NEW PSYCH OFFICE AND THEY WEIGHED ME WTF (ive only ever done telehealth idk if this is normal)

[tortellini - ed recovery @smallfairycals]

Cackling abt how if any of yall saw me now ud genuinely have a heart attack im so big now 😭😭