i honestly cant even believe i was happy about hitting gm last season. like what a fucking joke. theres nothing ive done that i should be happy about. all of my "achievements" are fucking worthless. theres nothing i should ever feel proud about. because im a fucking failure.
ive been playing competitively for years and i haven't achieved one goal, one important win, majorly improved, or do anything. i've been playing for years with nothing to show except being stuck in shitlow. i couldn't even hit gm without it being piss easy. im a fraud.
Soop why aren't you gm yet?
cuz im fucking terrible, im a plumber, im not built for this, the lights are too bright, im a pig, theres something fundamentally wrong with me.
if i ever make owcs (fucking longshot) it'll be because theres literally no one else playing the game