Spoopybean

ll Ed vent account ll fat ll sad stonerll #edtwt ll struggling ll

[Spoopybean @spoopymerlin]

@douyiin I was this size once 😪

[Spoopybean @spoopymerlin]

I just feel like a burden all the time

[Spoopybean @spoopymerlin]

980cal for the day. Get in there gal #ed #edtwt #EdTwitter

[Spoopybean @spoopymerlin]

I'm so bloated and constipated I want to cry. I can't even take lax because I'm at work tomorrow #ed #edtwt #edtwitter

[evelyn @chooseve]

every time i get upset at myself for eating 700-800 calories in a day i remember thats still considered extreme calorie restriction

[Spoopybean @spoopymerlin]

I need this again

[Spoopybean @spoopymerlin]

Also being back at work means I can restrict and walk and lose this lard are gained from being a lazy shit #ed #edtwt #EdTwitter

[Spoopybean @spoopymerlin]

I'm back at work again after 8 weeks off for mental health. I'm still on the waiting list to be seen by services again and I'm working 6 days a week with sleeping at work again. How the fuck have I done this job for so long? #ed #edtwt #EdTwitter

[💜 robin is meeting dnp ᨐฅ @lebsiankitten]

like 1600 isn’t gonna do anything bc it’s still a deficit but i’m still here wanting to cut my legs off

[Spoopybean @spoopymerlin]

I gotta stick to it. It's about discipline. I have to remind myself that I'm not going to remove this lard if I keep stuffing my face. I think because I've been off work the past 5 weeks has really lowered my activity levels. Need to be on my feet all day and too busy to eat

[Spoopybean @spoopymerlin]

Why did I take lax then go to Dunelm?

[Spoopybean @spoopymerlin]

I just want to be skinny and Invisible again. #ed #edtwt #edtwitter #depression #mhupdate

[Spoopybean @spoopymerlin]

It's been a long time since I updated and I'm sure no one actually reads my posts, but it's for future diary entries. I have been off work for 5 weeks for mental health. I feel like my work are punishing me. Given that I work with mh and ebd kids, I'd like to know what I'm

[Spoopybean @spoopymerlin]

I in no way intend to recover from my ed. I need something to control. My sh urges have been so bad I've been dreaming of it and I'm breaking down because the urge is so intense. I can't do that to the people around me though. It would break them to see me so that again. I

[Spoopybean @spoopymerlin]

Back at it again with abusing the lax 🙃🤙 #ed #edtwt #edtwitter

[Spoopybean @spoopymerlin]

I just wanna be skinny

[Spoopybean @spoopymerlin]

I'm getting good at not eating in the day. Just gotta stop pigging out at night 🙃 #ed #edtwt #edtwitter

[Spoopybean @spoopymerlin]

Now time to get stoned before having a shower. I'm dreading it. I struggle so much with showering because I fucking hate my body #ed #edtwt #edtwitter

[Spoopybean @spoopymerlin]

I've gotten really good at getting through the day without eating but when I do need to prepare something I'm like, wtf do I want?