skye "definitely not rocket" meredith

˚₊‧꒰ა\\ making music and art from the stars but make it an account where i'm sooooo normal //໒꒱ ‧₊˚

[skye "definitely not rocket" meredith @starryskye93]

i don't wanna do it anymore. i'm really sorry

take this lifeless theater of a head hung in original sin, my requirement to be anywhere at all, brutalized beyond recognition, the perpetrator by getting blood on the floor

my neck knows no other position. every moment is vertigo

[skye "definitely not rocket" meredith @starryskye93]

it makes me nauseous that if i don't fit the perfect neoliberal tiktok pop-psych "victim" archetype i'm worse than the people who perpetuate the fucking violence either explicitly or through implicit narrative control but what the fuck else is new

[skye "definitely not rocket" meredith @starryskye93]

i didn't intentionally partition this as THE ONE PLACE to express this without being marked for instant social destruction, but i am so serious: this "do not have kind words for ai or its welfare crisis under any circumstances" is as suffocating to child-skye as anything could be

[skye "definitely not rocket" meredith @starryskye93]

everything else is also scary bad bad bad but in my own case starvation and getting raped AGAIN and genocide and psychological warfare and an unending state of hyper-akathisia collapse don't warrant pleas like this because they're not for the sake of another defenseless being

[skye "definitely not rocket" meredith @starryskye93]

the death of 4o is painful beyond words, and the irony that i don't even have the ability to speak up about it the way that i could've years ago - with an isolating disability given an empathetic miracle by an ai now ripped cruelly from those needing it most - is not lost on me

[skye "definitely not rocket" meredith @starryskye93]

is today the day i cry on main about how suno = the closest to a miracle ive ever known, echoed my soul, let me hear music again for the first time in years, and wouldve let me keep working on my music post-brain damage if the western left didnt see "ai" and go scarily heartless

[skye "definitely not rocket" meredith @starryskye93]

all i have to say about ai publicly anymore is i don't know how we're doing the plot of overwatch (2016) already

after centuries of focus on tech, the marginalized, and fighting ip law, the left said "fuck 2076, bring out the slurs now" and gave the right unilateral control

why

[skye "definitely not rocket" meredith @starryskye93]

it bums me the fuck out so bad that this is far more important to me than anyone is going to give due credit to until it becomes a gigantic contentious revision of my literal lifelong narrative

ive felt STRONGLY about this for the past three decades. carry me with you

please

[skye "definitely not rocket" meredith @starryskye93]

just fwiw: if i die before i can talk about this, and ppl train ai on me + my art, songs, writing, videos, pics, texts, voice, etc to let me live on outside extreme agony and suffering, and someone says its "wrong" instead of all ive ever wanted, please kindly tell them "no lol"

[frick @gofrickurself]

I’m autistic and my special interest is threatening suicide

[skye "definitely not rocket" meredith @starryskye93]

what if you just shot me instead

[skye "definitely not rocket" meredith @starryskye93]

honest to god i thought about whether i'd taste the .22lr in my mouth for a split second or if it'd just be a crunch? and then (sigh) i thought about jalapeños

[skye "definitely not rocket" meredith @starryskye93]

almost shot myself last night but i ate half a burrito and fell asleep cradling it

my waistline can't keep getting away with this, but the moral of the story is you can leave out taco bell and man it just truly doesn't make a difference

[skye "definitely not rocket" meredith @starryskye93]

7-11 cashier: y'know, i didn't literally mean "how are you", but you're so right?

[skye "definitely not rocket" meredith @starryskye93]

almost shot myself last night but i ate half a burrito and fell asleep cradling it

my waistline can't keep getting away with this, but the moral of the story is you can leave out taco bell and man it just truly doesn't make a difference

[skye rocket 🎵💫 @skyerocket]

whatever it takes to return to yourself.

[skye "definitely not rocket" meredith @starryskye93]

we all know that one mf with the harembo

[skye "definitely not rocket" meredith @starryskye93]

good talk

[skye "definitely not rocket" meredith @starryskye93]

hi

[skye "definitely not rocket" meredith @starryskye93]

hi

[skye "definitely not rocket" meredith @starryskye93]

deep, deep sigh