salem ✮⋆

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| 19 | shedtwt | t1d | dni fatphobic / nonedtwt / under 18 |

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

im scared if i talk about my feelings im gonna bring down everyone around me too i dont wanna upset anyonewhen theyre dealing w their own shitb

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

if i get one more rude customer im Going to start yelling back istfg

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

i feel like everythibg i do i fake and its all fpr show to keep everyone else around me happy and maybe if i fake it long enough ill somehow make myself happy too i dont fucking know anymore i hate this

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

i hate lying but how do you straight up tell one of your best friends that you dont want to be alive anymore

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

this would be a goooood time

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

shouldve painted my nails blue

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

#menext !

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

i dont even feel like a real person anymore i dont fucking know

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

i have so much good in my life, i should be happy and grateful ??? but i dont really feel anything anymore

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

i love my family and my friends and my amazing boyfriend but i just feel so empty all the time like theres nothing inside me im just going through the motions every fucking day and sure i have moments where i laugh and smile and shit but idk i dont feel happy i feel fake

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

i hate feeljng like this and being lile this but #genuinely think id be better dead atp

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

change of plans ,,, if we go , im going as madoka and shes gonna be mami or homura IM SCARED im big and fat and im gonna look so dumb in a madoka dress If i can even find one in my size thatll ship out soon enough ...

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

gotta lock in fr i have a possible anime convention in two weeks and we're dressing up as uma characters . . . GULP

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

gotta lock in fr i have a possible anime convention in two weeks and we're dressing up as uma characters . . . GULP

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

hmmmmghmmgmgmmmfnm 🤤

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

also i got blood on my sheets ,,, idk what to do bc my aunts gonna be suspicious i fear

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

i hate myself for relapsing but its not rlly like i was Trying not to ,,, i. was just too lazy to lowk 🙂

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

but everything just hit me at once tonight and now here we are

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

@forthesickboy bro i forgot that was a thing ,,, lowk might be bc Damn 🫩🫩 (also youre good LOL)

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

is there like a genuine thing where i get Way More suicidal on / right before my period ??? like its insane

[salem ✮⋆ @starving_anon]

fuck astras are so sharp ??? i love these