a mess

16 | no eating disorder, just disordered eating | possibly triggering | pro recovery just not in it | avi isn’t me

[Bryan Dechart @BryanDechart]

You are human. You are alive.
You are valuable and loved.

Tomorrow can be better than today and you can build the future we all want to live in. Sending you peace and positivity, creativity and compassion.

[a mess @starvingastah]

@lmlosingmyself @Purgingtoperf They most likely only eat that and restrict most of the time plus a lot of them either pretend to swallow it and/or purge.

[Kalisto Zenda Nanen @Blackhoodoo]

rt if you've ever:

- self-harmed
- attempted suicide
- been to a therapist
- cancelled on things because you don't have the energy to live
- lied about being okay
- had a panic attack in a public bathroom

the world needs to know how common these things are.

[𝒸𝒽ℯ𝓇𝓇𝓎 𝒸𝒽ℯℯ𝓈ℯ𝒸𝒶𝓀ℯ 🍒 @starvetothebone]

ed culture is being jealous of a five year old

[Jacy @jacyjennings22]

do you think schools should allow students to have mental health days?

retweet for yes, fav for no(this is for a research project)

[a mess @starvingastah]

Recovery made me happier, but 2 years on I'm here fatter than ever hating myself even more. No matter what, whether skinny or fat, I'm always going to hate myself.

[len @callme_skinny]

me coming back to ed twitter after hitting my kms weight when i’ve been off for a month

[a mess @starvingastah]

@sad_2_day Yes! I always felt awful for being here because I’m not diagnosed, yet still struggling.

[a mess @starvingastah]

@pyrocynicalTV2 @Thin_Wishes3 Woah, so you’re telling me time is always moving? 😑

[Emily @EmMcchrystal]

To anyone who might need to see this: tidy your fucking room. You are affected by your surroundings. Open your blinds, brush your floor, put your clothes away. Have a fresh start and fresh room. Light a candle and be the bad bitch you’re destined to be.

[Ellie @Dream_thinny]

All I want

[a mess @starvingastah]

Stressed and exhausted. I literally had a panic attack yesterday as I was trying to get everything done. Is staying in school really worth my mental health?

[a mess @starvingastah]

So stressed from school. I love school but fuck. I swear I'm going insane, trying to catch up on all the work.

[joanne @Prettyinthin]

EDs when young:
- starving + feel nothing
- adrenaline
- 0 responsibilities
- TONS of energy

ED when old:
- have to work, do errands, chores
- little energy
- sensitive body
- health probs
- lunch w work colleagues
- can’t avoid social interactions
- alcohol
- relationships

[joanne @Prettyinthin]

What ppl think ED is:
*eats nothing* *vomits everything*

What pro anas think ED is:
Be a precious skinny snowflake

What it rly is:
Gain + lose the same weight for yrs + hating yourself a bit more every day. Also, mental + physical PAIN.

[a mess @starvingastah]

Back here once again, ugh. I know I should continue to get better, but I just can't do it anymore,

[a mess @starvingastah]

Starting back at school tomorrow, and starting to heavily restrict again. This will be the year of success. I will not give up.

[MatPat @MatPatGT]

Today is the ONLY day you can RT this:

The #NetNeutrality vote is TOMORROW.
Make your voice heard NOW or risk paying extra to RT anything ever again!