|i am my own god|

bulimic|major depressive|anxiety|bpd|PTSD|SH| I have a hard time functioning but everyday I know I try my best, sometimes. 5'1/UGW:82lbs/ rlly sad stoner person

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

Here’s my yearly appearance ig. I love this account but I’m not who I was when I first made it anymore. I miss the community… and once more, god am I fatter than ever lmao

I want to reconnect with you all and be who I once was 🥹

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

I just made dinner and I’m freaking out like it looks like so much and it IS even though half of the plate is veggies I feel like that’s no excuse. Might put the rice back and just have haddock and veggies.

I’m so greedy and it’s like I don’t know how to stop but I DO

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

I know part of my problem is I’m so focused on just not getting any fatter vs losing weight… I’m always terrified to step on a scale now, even if I think a horrifying number might trigger me enough to stop being the fatass I am. I’m so so so mad I let this happen

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

I love the trend now that I only tweet here when I have immense guilt or something like guys those pics from years ago? Oh they’re GOONE. I am so fucking fat and yet I shove my face until midnight every day and I don’t know what to do anymore 🫠🫠🫠 how did this happen……

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

If I eat today my muffin top wins 😒 and that’s how it’s gonna be

Just some ✨detoxing✨

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

Have the tiktok stuck in my head of a girl using WAP in the background going like “I wanna gag, I wanna choke” to her toothbrush 💀 but now I can’t find it for the life of me

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

Ight who can drop some ed tiktok peeps? I’ve finally caved and finding people to follow is harder than I thought 😬😩

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

I am full of Cheez-Its and regret

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

I know I barely post on here anymore but I could rlly use a friend that gets what this sort of hell is like don’t mind my kik LOL if anyone is 21+ that wouldn’t mind having an extra friend 😊🤗
Kik is Lovebones47
I also have discord Satantastic#3828
#anorexic #bulimic #EDtwt

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

It’s a blessing & a curse that my mom is a bartender
Bc like, on one hand.. she’s desensitized to what the average alcoholic is like
But on the other hand...
She’s desensitized LMAO yeah I’m just buying 2 more bottles of vodka in 2 days but what did I do with the salt right? 🤷🏻‍♀️

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

The last few days I’ve just been bursting into tears how fat and pathetic I am
🆒🆒

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

I guess I’m gonna try and make a return. I’m 136lbs fat and already had a few panic attacks in front of my mirror so.... yay! Fuck my life.

[sof @ty_ra_no_saur]

the "im nervous" ed starter pack

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

It’d just be nice to have a 21+ female friend to talk to an ED about and be comfortable/close with with that shit but I know I ask for too much 🤷🏼‍♀️🙃

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

Do you ever feel like you look okay like with how your clothes feel on you and shit so you look and take body checks and then suddenly you just want to fast for 5 days lmao because me too thanks

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

Another friend who I know has an ED has started a thing called Meatless Monday’s and I’m hoping on and trying to think of other ways to stay motivated the rest of the week with disgusting things I shouldn’t be eating 🤪⚰️

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

My post-acid trip outfit like the chubby monkey I am 🐒 it’s the wide leg hippie pants that look like a skirt 😍

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

@ShandowsandBone I liked my body a lot around 100-105 and my lowest is 98 so like, um, rlly guys? This is no bueno right now

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

What do you think the ideal weight would be for someone 5’1? PLEASE BE HONEST!! (in lbs) #anorexia #bulimia #bulimic #anorexic #proana #weight #anabuddy

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

Totally not helpful my dudes 😭😭😭

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

Egg mono or a liquid fast (like smoothies rest will be 0 cal still)

[|i am my own god| @starvingfor82lb]

@ShandowsandBone Bruh that’s what I’m thinking lol like the answer is my weight range now NOT HELPFUL AND I AM NOT THIN