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21✿✿gw:47kg

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im lonely, im alone but my life is so peaceful. im all alone in my house sitting, working, drawing, doing yoga, dancing and fasting. no ones in my way.

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when i do eat i get full very fast and my stomach starts to hurt and wants a break so starting the next fast is very easy. i have to admit its only this easy bc im living alone and working from home rn, also im poor so i literally can't order food or buy junk lol

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fasting makes me appreciate food.i just ate a bowl of of cucumber, picle, tuna and yogurt and it didn't taste good but i was appreciating the energy it'll give me. than i ate a banana was very yummy andd the star of the day was two pieces of dark chocolate and coffee

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i fast for coupla days then give myself 6 hours of eating window then start another fast. this kinda gets rid of the food noise bc like eating isn't a part of my schedule. i also don't feel guilty about the food i do eat bc ive been fasting yk

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my biggest trigger to relapse was my thighs chafing and hurting in skirts and shorts...like before gaining weight i forgot about that even happening. also my sister has always been the skinny one before i lost weight and now she's skinnier than me again even tho she gained weight

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if i wasn't disordered this would be hell like imagine i don't have enough money to eat?? thats crazy andd even when i dont spend any money on food i only have enough money to go out drinking for one night.

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new strategy just have debt and be poor so you literally don't have money to buy food!! i literally have 2 euros per day for the next 10 days and i need to buy house groceries like shampoo etc. and hopefully ill still be able to go out and hangout with friends for a coupla days

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yes i can cook with the ingredients at home but im kinda lazy and everything is kinda healthy anyways? like i have boiled chicken, potatoes, zucchini, some more raw chicken in the freezer and rice etc. soo im just fasting and eating boiled chicken lol

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soo doesn't look that different but dress comparison

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okey so somethings wrong bc why am i getting the worst cravings ever on the third day of my fast?? it was supposed to get easier mann

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its the 3rd day of my water fast and im literally shitting water. how do i fix itt help

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what i wanted to ask u guys is does anyone have tips for prolonged fasting like 4+days? or has anyone done weekly schedule like this, how did it work for you? im open to any tips or suggestions about the schedule. i would feel really greatful for angagement bc i kinda feel alone

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so i started a four day fast, will try to keep it going as long as i can tho. the plan is doing 3 day fasts minimum and hopefully water fasting and omading rest of the week. i made some calculations and i should lose 10kg of fat in about 4 months.

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but dedication is everything this is the most doable plan for me and time will pass anyways i just gotta stick to it. maybe ill get more motivated when i start seeing results and start exercising more. we'll see.

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they also refused to take it home so i brought it back. i really want to eat ittt what do i do?? its really sugary and high in calorie so i really shouldn't eat it but i don't want to waste itt uhhh

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two days ago i made a cake with chocolate sauce on top and it tastes amazing. i ate two slices and that triggered me to kind of relapse. now i have an amazing cake that i don't want to waste. i brought it to class for my friends to eat but they didn't finish it

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yes i gained weight yes i lost control but none of that matters now cuz im stronger. i didn't stand by and just gain weight i achieved huge things in my life losing a little bit of weight isn't hard for me. i will achieve everything i put my mind to and im choosing this

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i hate this cycle i hate myself i have nobody to talk to i feel so lonely but im strong i will achieve everything i want i will get the body i deserve this is me know this is my personality this is who i am and nothing will stand in my way

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so i just casually fasted today? very cool very chill