1. It is inconsistent. You are good one minute and you are not anymore.
2. It is embarrassing. You are in a loop of trying and failing.
3. How do you find the words to explain something you barely understand even.
When I was at my absolute lowest and told people about it, it made me feel like the biggest loser on earth which also happened to make me feel even worse. Not saying you shouldn’t talk to people but it’s genuinely very hard to deal with both before and after you tell ppl
@oriond342 even worse when you're in the closet and haven't transitioned yet because you already feel like you're embarrassing yourself at every waking moment
*scrolls* man i wish i drew like that... *scrolls* man i wish i drew like that... *scrolls* man i wish i drew like that... *scrolls* man i wish i drew like that... *scrolls* man i wish i drew like that...
depression sucks because what do you mean I'm on my favorite game just staring blankly at the menu incapable of fully enjoying what I loved this morning
one thing i saw the tv glow gets right is that the longer you repress the harder it becomes to self actualize and transition not just physically but mentally as the walls you build become taller and taller until the prison you’ve created your entire life feels almost inescapable
what is it called when you have actually watched or played something before but you have a terrible memory and forgot 90% of it because it's not exactly larping