stormy monday

ди·dee | 23 | they/them | adhd&bpd | улетать только если к морю | they have a cave troll™ | my pain isn't cool enough | wow, genetic | want love and sunny days

[stormy monday @sunset__lover]

the title for this on google docs is just the word "gay" five times.

[stormy monday @sunset__lover]

на моём надгробии напишите

[stormy monday @sunset__lover]

this this this this

[AntiSocial @Anti_Social_040]

please understand that i'm trying, but my best is never good enough, no matter how hard i try.

[AntiSocial @Anti_Social_040]

i'm literally so tired of being nice to people and going out of my way to make sure they're okay and happy just to be treated like shit.

[64 @rxswago]

i literally do anything to distract myself from the fact that I’m lonely asf.

[stormy monday @sunset__lover]

что было правдой в 13 остаётся правдой в 23

[stormy monday @sunset__lover]

i try to care, but just care less.

[angel @_angel988]

isolating myself in hopes my friends notice and they never do

[໊ @escritosvibra]

necesito spoilers de mi futuro para saber si al final soy feliz, porque sino me mato ya

[mahrukh @parhloumahrukh]

What if I just ghosted everyone in my life and threw my phone in the trash

[vivi @mooncatvivi]

having this innate belief that no one could possibly truly Actually like me or be interested in me much less than Want me. a reality where u 100% believe u are ugly & unlovable & just Undesirable where any sort of interest draws out Fear bc how could anyone possibly like Me

[𝓣𝓱𝓲𝓪𝓰𝓸 @gian_cjs]

no cambió nada y vuelvo a la cama pensando que tal vez mañana, todo será un poco menos peor que hoy

[ଓ ﹒ amora ﹒ ౨ৎ @amorabled]

i fantasize about people noticing how much i suffer and worrying about md but the second it actually happens i panic because i dont want to be a burden and it makes me uncomfortable

[renn @zeroedmymind]

How many dreams that I made as a child do I have to break to truly understand why all of this is hopeless

Why do I even have to stop believing in things I did as a younger self in order to grow up into something older, something worse

I’m rotting, decaying, constantly suffering

[cee @1ovesickkk]

theres nothing inside me besides an overwhelming desire to be known and understood

[renn @zeroedmymind]

No I’m not crying, IM FUCKING BREAKING DOWN SILENTLY IN MY ROOM STARING AT THE CEILING WISHING THAT I WOULD BE DEAD BECAUSE I KNOW THAT TOMORROW WILL BE EVEN WORSE THAN TODAY AND NO I CANNOT RETURN TO FUCKING BETTER DAYS BECAUSE THEY NEVER WAS “BETTER” AND ALL OF THIS IS hopeless

[Libriscent @libriscent]

i no longer have any interest in talking to anyone anymore. i’m actually drained & always feel like im begging no matter who it is.

[stormy monday @sunset__lover]

the end of the world wouldn't be so bad if I had anyone to share it with but alas