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my yves-dee diary 🌿 retired fs 🌱 no.1 orbit on stayedtwt

[ria 🍄 @sweetcrazycals]

OH MY GOD all my measurements have gone down by multiple cms hehehhehee

[ria 🍄 @sweetcrazycals]

oh my god i just found bcs from back in oct how did i walk around looking like that

[ria 🍄 @sweetcrazycals]

my sister's wedding is next weekend and i've lost 10 lbs since i took my dress to the tailor to get fitted...

[ria 🍄 @sweetcrazycals]

@slicedslim yeah idk i think some of us just get more sucked into it more than others :( even when a good chunk of that external pressure is gone the internal pressure and expectations for yourself still weigh so heavily

[ria 🍄 @sweetcrazycals]

my account is so empty jesus

[ria 🍄 @sweetcrazycals]

@slicedslim near impossible to maintain that same physique so a lot of us just seem outwardly/physically recovered but a lot of those thoughts remain (2/2)

[ria 🍄 @sweetcrazycals]

@slicedslim personally i gained so much weight after i stopped skating because i lost all of the physical activity that counteracted my near daily binges, then i entered a recovery/acceptance period and have relapsed countless times since... either way i think once you stop skating its (1/2)

[ria 🍄 @sweetcrazycals]

anorexia nervosa is a mental illness and anorexia is a medical term used to describe lack of appetite it ain't that hard

[ria 🍄 @sweetcrazycals]

down 8lbs in last week and 11lbs overall since last month and the doctor just told me it could take multiple weeks for me to get better

[ria 🍄 @sweetcrazycals]

i've malnourished myself plenty throughout my life but i've never felt as weak and sick as i do right now

[ria 🍄 @sweetcrazycals]

starving not of my own volition currently i have mixed feelings

[ria 🍄 @sweetcrazycals]

in my skimpy bathing suit with my bush and scars hanging out

[ria 🍄 @sweetcrazycals]

food is fuel i'm getting abs yassssss #coping

[j♡ ̆̈ •. @reidrexia]

the irony of developing an ed to gain control just for you to completely lose control

[ria 🍄 @sweetcrazycals]

irls watching me gain and lose the same 10 pounds

[ria 🍄 @sweetcrazycals]

i wanna cut so badddddddddd

[cece ୨୧ @cewiiaa]

when i’m inactive on here just know i’m being fat

[xan @xan0rexlc]

i have a severe eating disorder but in the way it consumes my every thought not in the way that i’m rlly skinny