sylibia

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I like music, tech, books, acid, science, and trying to maybe help save the world.

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People who suck at communicating and enforcing their boundaries/comfort zone are actually terrifying and exhausting to love.

The only way to not feel like I may be hurting them is giving up all agency and never actually taking initiative.

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@AmolKulshresht0 The big lesson was that no, allowing myself to feel happy and loved doesn't result in me dropping everything I value. It makes me better at pursuing those things.

That, and the fact that it's ok to.value things that are meaningful to me without those having planet scale meaning.

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My past self is in this picture and it doesn't like it.

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Overintellectualization makes people act really stupid. You're a whole body system, not a prefrontal cortex ghost attached to a dumb piece of meat. Ignore your own natural desires, thoughts, and emotions at your peril.

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@AmolKulshresht0 I ran into a wall badly enough to end up in a mental hospital, which forced me to reassess things, and I met somebody who got me to actually do nice things.

Turns out I function better when I'm not starving myseld of joy, food, and connection.

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The distance means I'll either need to somehow love them a lot less, or double down hard, which they can't give me the safety of commitment for. Everything else would be torturing myself.

There's no satisfying, non committal equilibrium there.

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Someone I love very deeply is about to move very far away, and I have no clue how to deal with that.

We've found our weird equilibrium of contentness in how we've defined our relationship, but all of that sort of just breaks with distance.

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There's not much commitment but a lot of emotional intimacy and enjoyment of proximity, which makes me happy as is. But it relies on convenient availability. If living this is low cost, low commitment is fine. If meeting costs thousands, not so much.

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@froglegsreborn @wesyang It's a disaster on both ends.

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@keencoldair @noampomsky That's not necessarily losing your boundaries though. Might as well be having boundaries which cover a lot.

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@realfrostylady Honestly, revolution against governments that have access to modern tech is kind of terrifying. They are probably not set up to abuse it optimally, but it's difficult to judge what they can do.

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@MasterTimBlais Wack. I need to focus to even notice weed, and I'm generally pretty open and relaxed when I do it.

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@bihari_bnda @kunalb11 Curiosity is a passion.

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@__drewface I've overdone it before and it messes me up real good, so now I'm ramping back up cautiously.

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@namitoberoy_ If your life sucks, or if your day sucked, going to sleep means accepting that that chunk of your life has been wasted/destroyed.

Accepting that is scary, so you just... don't.

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@edog137 @eurydicelives That's the blunt version.

You can also make an effort to specifically not do that. Create space for them to speak up by inviting them to speak their minds. Make them feel safe saying things you may not like.

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@eurydicelives Knowing a person like this and their experiences due to people not factoring this in, definitely unethical.

This very easily, and frequently, ends up in rapy territory, and plenty of other exploitation.

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@sun_girlxo It's kind of messed up what being called 'pretty' by the right person can do to me ngl.

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@noampomsky Awh man...

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@AskYatharth I tend to do the inverse.

I crave intimate connection and mutual understanding so much I just put my bare soul on the table within an hour. I want to be loved, and to be loved is to be known.

Lots of people have their pincers in me :/

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@nickcammarata Man, I suppose I deeply needed, but absolutely hate to read this today. Rude.

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@Builtahouse @eurydicelives Ah yes, the glorious struggle to clearly communicate love while making it understood that that doesn't imply an expectation or desire for anything sexual.