fish- shtwt/edtwt

pro recovery!!!
mdni
bmi 16.3
#shedtwt

[fish- shtwt/edtwt @taboofish]

intro!!
-20!
-any pronouns
-shedtwt
-diagnosed with mdd and agoraphobia
-minors dni!!
-i follow back :p
-looking for moots!!

[fish- shtwt/edtwt @taboofish]

my head hurts so badd i hate this body i hate being in pain by things i have no control over. i miss when my decisions alone caused my pain. not dying bc i was sitting down too long. i hate it hereee

[fish- shtwt/edtwt @taboofish]

didn’t actually want to relapse but the way these blades are looking at mee 🥴

[fish- shtwt/edtwt @taboofish]

i should kms im so tired jesusss

[fish- shtwt/edtwt @taboofish]

prob gonna relapse soon it’s been constantly on my mind for weeks now and it’s just building up. i wanna cut myself so bad

[fish- shtwt/edtwt @taboofish]

i wanna hit 100lbs so bad, im only 4lbs away. i hate how ive been gaining and losing the same 15 lbs for 10 years. i just need to lock in. i just want to be in the double digits again. i want to feel small again.

[fish- shtwt/edtwt @taboofish]

went on a date like 2 years ago and the guy only played 100 gecs the entire time we were hanging out, when it was time to take me home, he turned on free bird and rolled down all of the windows. i ghosted him bc of 100 gecs tho.

[örca♩෴ .🇻🇳 @no_2Demon]

This was fire as hell idgaf

[fish- shtwt/edtwt @taboofish]

someone plz tell me what bmi i look 🙏i’m loosing my mind i feel like ive gained sm weight since my last weigh in. #edrtwt #shedtwt #bodycheck

[fish- shtwt/edtwt @taboofish]

i need to stop drinking my calories. it’s genuinely the reason i’m stuck at bmi 16, i think for the best few days im gonna try to stick to just my coffee drink + water. see if that helps.

[fish- shtwt/edtwt @taboofish]

i hate feeling full i feel so big and disgusting rn :(( everytime i eat i feel like i instantly undo all my progress

[fish- shtwt/edtwt @taboofish]

2020-2026. crazy how i look the exact same but so different just bc im older and 10lbs lighter. #edrtwt #bodycheck #shedtwt

[fish- shtwt/edtwt @taboofish]

thinking abt how gross and skinny i thought i looked this time last year. and now im trying to get back to that. and im the same weight.. body dysmorphia is so crazy i feel so huge this time around

[fish- shtwt/edtwt @taboofish]

cart empty, vape empty, bank account empty. what am i supposed to doooo godddd

[˚₊‧꒰ა a n t h k n y ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ @dqrlinglucina]

i think its funny when people say “no one thinks about you as much as u think they do” to socially anxious people bc you spend literally 10 minutes online or with anyone at all and its just people proving that exact sentiment wrong

[fish- shtwt/edtwt @taboofish]

the rain needs to stop i hurt so bad today

[fish- shtwt/edtwt @taboofish]

head hurts so bad today i feel like a lazy vegetable 😔

[fish- shtwt/edtwt @taboofish]

i look so big today. i hate not feeling comfortable wearing short sleeves, baggy clothes just make me look big now. #edrtwt #shedtwt

[fish- shtwt/edtwt @taboofish]

biggest bmi 16 ever #edrtwt #shedtwt #edr #anatwt

[fish- shtwt/edtwt @taboofish]

i hate how big my back looks but i think im starting to look more boney than muscular #edrtwt #shedtwt

[fish- shtwt/edtwt @taboofish]

the fact that the lighting’s the only difference between these photos is so upsetting #edtwt #edrtwt #shedtwt
april-june