i hate poverty so much.
It turns you into a people pleaser. You avoid conflict because you can't afford to lose access, help, opportunities.
It makes you overexplain. You feel the need to justify your existence, choices, or mistakes , it shuts you up.
It's genuinely crazy how many of the 90s/00s baddies never married. Mya, Tracee, Nia, Taraji, Regina, Sanaa. Whatever they saw in their younger years must've turned them off completely.