Lol being tiny makes everyone love you look at the comments under this post. She literally doesn’t have friends but everyone is hyping her up and wishing her well if I wasn’t a fat fucking chud maybe people would do that for me too
sometimes i feel like people online don’t give me enough credit
last year i told myself that my eating disorder is my death wish and i’m OK with dying at 30
but now i don’t think like that at all i don’t want to die i want to be alive and help people i want to be intelligent i want to be useful and make a difference in this world and if i’m dead i can’t do that
i know i’m still physically unhealthy but i’m really trying my best not to lose weight anymore i don’t want to be like this it’s just hard food is not interesting to me at all and the textures and everything are so overwhelming so it’s just really difficult for me but i really am trying i mean this
last year i was on edtwt 24/7 posting about how i want to lose weight and just live broadcasting in my misery for everyone to watch
but now i’ve left edtwt and i’m focusing more on my interests like Hannibal and Silence of the Lambs and Criminal Minds and writing and poetry and reading and criminal justice forensic psychology behavioral analysis all of this
i’m hopefully starting an early college full time dual enrollment program next year at the community college near me for criminal justice and when i get my highschool degree with these college class credits i will apply to go to a criminal justice school in New York City hopefully i can get a scholarship there
anyways the point is i’m trying to be a better person i’m trying to be a better person now and i feel like sometimes people only see me for who i used to be rather who i am now and it makes me sad because i’ve really changed for the better since then
I rlly want anorexia :( it’s so feminine and girly I just want to be feminine and tiny. Being small is super feminine and perfect being fat is so gross and repulsive. I need my sick body back wish I was anorexic :( anorexic people are lucky like ur so perfect and disciplined
Because when u tell everyone you’re trying to lose weight their eyes are going to be on your body and food even more. Why would you want that extra attention
People who publically talk about weight loss are so weird like instead talking about losing weight and cutting calories be quiet about it and just show up smaller each time. It’ll be weird if ur talking abt it but u gain the weight back or just don’t lose
Stay quiet about losing weight and one day show up being small and everyone is going to be jealous you were bettering yourself while they chose to eat and stay where they’re at. They’ll be so jealous you’ll def be on their mind
@mii1pink It’s funny like the first 2 times but then it’s like okay guys like ok haha starving omg so funny you’re so funny can you shut the fuck up aftually
@melonp4rfait “Is this bmi 13 personal naturally like this? Are they one of us! Or is this natural??”
Dawg they’re literally documenting their exercise purging online it’s literally right there
@melonp4rfait I hate when people on here see someone else and they’re like “I want her discipline” “ how does she stay skinny while eating that much” let’s think obviously this person has some kind of disordered eating. Same w posting a bmi 13 person asking if they’re one of us.
@emiszyx I actually didn’t notice the label, all I saw was the magnesium citrate . I was in bed when I saw this post I didn’t have my glasses to see that it’s labelled as a laxative