i hate myself. i had a subjective “binge” that was only like 400-500cal. but i lost control and get sm guilt, like i was stress eating and only stopped myself cos i felt sick. i ended up purging even tho i still ate only 1.1k today and did 20k steps :( i hate this
day 6:
weight: 48.8kg (how tf???)
total consumed: 1046/900 (oops)
steps: 15.3k
i decided it’s easier to eat small but frequent meals over the day than risk omad’ing for dinner and binging from restriction. but if i have dinner plans with friends then i will omad that meal.
@borderlinebones wish ppl were more understanding of this more bc most ppl associate ed with patriarchy or body image, but sometimes it’s more than that. it’s also addiction, whether that be to food or to the scale dropping
@lyxiiae@kxtequ this but also quickly spiking ur blood sugar levels makes u hungry again. it’s why it’s recommended to start ur day with protein source bc it’s less likely to spike ur blood as much as carbs.
yk that saying if you’re actually a happy person, you don’t need to convince yourself every morning that you’re happy? i’m convinced recovery influencers are just telling themselves they’re recovered as either denial or so they can continue their ed ways but masked as recovery
@bananaddie eg if i’m on my period and i weight slightly more, i will reassure myself it’s just period water weight. as long as the general trend is going down over a week then ik my cal deficit is working. if it doesn’t go down after a week, then ik i need to tweak something
@bananaddie i make sure to do it every morning after i pee with no clothes. if u standardise ur weighing process (i.e. no clothes bc diff clothes fluctuates ur weight), it helps give u a better picture of ur progress especially in relation to ur menstrual cycle.
@retrotiaz pros and cons of joining edrtwt is finding ppl that r similar to u. and alternatively finding ppl who are extreme opposite, bc EDs range so much.
@r0ckstar_cAt for me, weight bc it’s the number i see on the scale. but for edtwt purposes, seeing others bmi instantly gives me a better indication of how their physique is since it accounts for both weight and height. like on paper im 48.8kg which sounds low. until u account for my height