@DzintraSullivan How much do you know, when the standards are built by the same type of people who cannot love themselves, let alone anyone else. I know you're better than this, you're as great as as you have dreamt these mornings, watching yourself lose a bet against the way.
Your mission, should you choose to accept it, is to make your life a dish with peas and hominy... Add whatever enhances, balances, sparks, or adds filler.
Just keep the overall flavor. Make it thiccck