hawkeye.
I just learnt she wants to go back with me deep down, but refuses to because she doesn’t wanna hurt me with « lesser feelings » it hurts even more bro, i’d beg her if i could but it would lead to nothing
hawkeye.
It feels so strange now to not talk to her , I’m sorry to rent on here but man , I feel alone now, and the heartache keeps on coming bc i still have hope that she Will come back
“ People would accept you , people that wouldn’t make you risk your life for some . . stupid creature to take down . ”
he, himself was very conflicted, he couldn’t say the truth to her to achieve his goal & yet he craved to .
“ Turn back , please . Take your friends with —
“Where? This is all I know. All that there is. . .”
She is not sure what he means. And still the idea of a life outside this place was foreign. Maelle did not understand and still rejected it. A piece of her knew what that meant even if Maelle herself didn't.
“I always felt »
— you , think of everything and you will understand that I’m right , I’m trying to save you Ali - [..] ”
his facial expression changed as he had cutten his words off , his face saddened, he spoke too much now , his mind was getting the hold of his emotions and he would surely—
— I do everything I do now , Huh ? I want you to enjoy your life away from here . ”
his words betrayed his true goal , in a way , but he hadn’t even thought before speaking , this time it was the father talking & not the artist of death .
Each word she spoke broke something in him , as if it was cutting all the links he had with Alicia , it was like he saw her being youthful again , and acting as hurtful as he did back then .
“ It’s more complicated than this. ”
he spoke , his tone was not even harsh , full —
Maelle could have pushed him away. She would have done It if she wasn't so tired. So tired of losing family and hope.
What would they think if they saw her allowing that man to comfort her? What would Gustave say?
“Why don't you just leave me alone or end this? If I'm such a »
— of anger as it was always , this time it was tender , fatherly , kind , even .
His embrace certainly wasn’t going to be broken by him , by trying to bring a sort of conflicted comfort to her , he also was healing his own scars .
“ (…) Maybe you start to understand , why —
— he could be stabbed at any moment , he didn’t even think twice , and just gave her an embrace , he was sure that he was going to be pushed away , but he wanted to face the ghost of his responsabilities, to be soothed of the pain of not being there when everything occured .
Renoir’s cane had hit the floor , a few centimeters away from the sobbing redhead , as of the man , he had crouched to be in front of her , since they were alone , he allowed himself to put his guard down for once .
he had laid his hand on her shoulder as she sobbed , in a —
was a kid. Moving from family to family. She had a bigger burden than her bones could ever bear. And in that moment she wanted to be free, to finally belong. She felt like she did back then with Gustave but now. . .
Now she was just a sobbing mess in front of that wretched man.
— Maelle , or rather , Alicia crying her heart out as she saw her disfigured face , her dead brother , if he hadn’t spent 67 years trapped under the monolithe, he would be tearing up as well .
But someone had to try and save the family , and it had to be him .
Although —