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22 she/her this is essentially my trauma dump diary thanks for reading (TW SH+ED)

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beginning to accept that Hot Boss™️ will forever reign supreme as the crush of all crushes despite that fact that he ignores the fuck out of me 99% of the time

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being visited by the ovulation demon that makes me send likes to people on hinge

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i dropped my mom off at the airport earlier and i can’t stop thinking about how it’ll be like at least a month until i see her again

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okay so i just kinda moved out for the first time (it’s temp) and oh my god im so alone and im like 500 miles away from home and i literally cannot stop crying

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something gay needs to happen to me right neow

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my fav hobby is liking peoples instagram stories while inebriated

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i haaaate being drunk pls i don’t wanna throw up rn 😭😭😭

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i swear to god i’m gonna grow my hair out this semester. no more stress induced diy haircuts to feel something I NEED TO BE HOT AGAIN

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i love when i’m trying to go back to sleep and i get hit with the Barrage of Shame where my brain plays a highlight reel of moments that make me want to put a bullet in between my eyes

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been up for like 22 hours depressed as hell thinking abt my inability to maintain interpersonal relationships

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psa if you’re below the age of 22 you NEEEED to stop flaking on people bc your friends are getting fucking sick of it

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daily affirmation: i am not starting from square one

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keywords here: no mid white boys

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I LOVE GETTING OVER IT!!! MY LIFE IS FINE!!!!!!!!

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why is walking down the street alone in your halloween costume the worst thing that’s even happened to me

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pls god kill me im so unbelievably chopped

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yo so what do i do if i have like 4 friends but none of them actually like me enough to hangout with me and it’s been months since i have real human connection and im drowning in loneliness and self-pity

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my hair-cutting compulsion is so bad rn

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haven’t cut in almost 2 years but the loneliness combined with fear of human connection combo might just break that streak

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either my mother is totally ungrateful or i literally cannot do anything right by her