kota

23 • eating disorder acc • she/her • vegetarian • your local skinnyfat

[kota @trippingcals]

Unpinning at 88lbs 🌙

[kota @trippingcals]

they'll care to check my nutrition and stuff but ... idk if that's even it?? Like do I just want validation that I'm still skinny? My bmi has stayed at 16.0-16.5 for a while now, rn it's at 16.2 and I'm like what if it was 15.9 or 16.0 would they care more? Why do I want them to?

[kota @trippingcals]

Is it fucked up that I want to lose more weight before I go to the doctor?? I'm not deep in my ED so I guess I want them to acknowledge that I'm underweight but idk what my motivation is?? Like I'm telling myself it's because I want them to take me being underweight seriously so

[kota @trippingcals]

@edthotss @TYcals She changed it to say the occurrence is not insignificant

[kota @trippingcals]

@edthotss @TYcals The comments on the CP were all either disgusting or were promoting their account where they also posted CP (reported as much as I could before I had to just get offline and distract myself..) There are huge p3do rings on PH, to the point where people have tried to shut them down

[kota @trippingcals]

@edthotss @TYcals PH is always working on their moderation but a lot of stuff slips through the cracks. Found this video once that was poorly filmed & looked like the woman was drugged and trying to get away from the men. Also found and reported MULTIPLE videos of young kids in bathroom stalls :(

[kota @trippingcals]

https://t.co/a0xaa9KHEi

[kota @trippingcals]

cw: bodycheck

[kota @trippingcals]

Bodycheck thread 🐛

[kota @trippingcals]

https://t.co/HEKVTzUO1Q

[kota @trippingcals]

Bear socks bodycheck

[kota @trippingcals]

cw: bodycheck

[kota @trippingcals]

Yes I want a cat ok

[kota @trippingcals]

Me vs how I want to look

[Lilli 💜 @CandyXcals]

Me vs ideal me oooo one day. One day I'll be so cool

[kota @trippingcals]

I'm so close to my lw

[kota @trippingcals]

HOLY FUCK IM BMI 15.9 AGAIN

[kota @trippingcals]

I'm not judging them I just don't understand. Like the 44 oz drinks are so big, if you have 2 a day that's so many empty calories. The diet is right there but it's way less popular

[kota @trippingcals]

I think about this nonstop working at a gas station

[kota @trippingcals]

Oh I'm high I forgot to ask the question but like ... has anyone elses cervix like ... moved ?? Not higher or lower but like side to side?

[kota @trippingcals]

Okay Twitter is a terrible place to ask this but like ...

I don't touch my cervix often but I swear when I have in the past it was in the middle ??

And now ?? Its up against the left corner of my vagina? Like the whole right side is like an empty space I feel insane rn

[kota @trippingcals]

@THClbs Psssst

[kota @trippingcals]

Dude I had a notification that was like "see latest bmi data". Ik high and I really thought it was a news thing... but it took me to the Google search "good bmi" .... GOOGLE WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO SAY

[kota @trippingcals]

Fell asleep high and dreamt the police were here to search my apartment and I was trying to figure out what to do with all my weed

[kota @trippingcals]

Yesterday this guy said I looked 120 lbs and felt 140 and he said I was lying about being 93 lbs. In the same breath he insulted my body and called me undeveloped.

[kota @trippingcals]

Sometimes I just wonder what it would be like to interact with these men as another man instead of a woman

[kota @trippingcals]

Sometimes I really wonder what it would be like to be a man. Not in a trans way but holy shit men are scary sometimes