One of the best things my therapist told me was "the reason you dissociate in your towel after you shower, sit in your car after you park, and mindlessly scroll on your phone all night after work is because you're living in a "functional freeze state." Where you can still get things done, but it takes every ounce of your energy to do it. This is why you're constantly exhausted, space out often, and why you can be so social at work but then ignore every text once you get home." If you can relate maybe this account is for you.