lulu

tw: ed sw: idk prob 21kg i was 8

[lulu @velimpurus]

i’m so tired of killing myself every day

[lulu @velimpurus]

@BlueMuriel you are very weird and clearly not a psychologist please seek professional help LOL

[lulu @velimpurus]

@accountabitch I literally couldn’t have asked to read anything more thank what you wrote honestly thank you so much you have a heart of gold and knew exactly what to say🖤 thank you

[lulu @velimpurus]

oh and before someone looks at it and goes “55kg ugw lol” or that my bmi is only around 17. I’m 5’10 (178cm). Thats just the weight i always imagined to be perfect for me, my dream ultimate goal for when everyone will finally see me as small and fragile. I was WRONG LOL

[lulu @velimpurus]

idk if u want proof or whatever but this is around the time i relapsed again. In those 9 months of hell, I had an ab*rtion, started new medications, got diagnosed with 3 more things, spent more money than I earned, and accomplished nothing but pathetically slow weight loss.

[lulu @velimpurus]

hit my ugw and nothing changed btw

[lulu @velimpurus]

I just had my first ever blood test results. GP has sent me home with informational material to fighting ED’s i’m so screwed

[lulu @velimpurus]

@dmwk00 you are a freak i genuinely hope a piano falls on your head or you accidentally walk off of a cliff

[ajla 𐙚 @espressopearls]

losing my damn mind

[lulu @velimpurus]

i miss you twitter but ive never been better than when I am not on here. Been in a 3 months long honeymoon phase as an adult honestly 10/10

[Dr. Christian of 3dtwt @DrChristianED]

i know this sounds silly bc i’m literally on edtwt, but i’m just now realizing that i might have a serious problem

[bambi . ⭐ @luvvsbonez]

this awoke smth inside of me

[daily motivation @prettierdaily]

goal

[lulu @velimpurus]

now this is the ideal. i get it now

[Ara @killdeaaronfox]

excuse me

[leo @dietfume]

🌿a very specific aesthetic of thinspo thread that i’m obsessed with

[lulu @velimpurus]

I starved. It says 4 months but actually I was pregnant for 2 of those months, so they didn’t count. End of thread 😍

[lulu @velimpurus]

oh my waist is 26 inches. score.

[lulu @velimpurus]

@pasakiss what does it taste like? in my culture we have blood soup and blood sausages but I wasn’tever interested in eating them so i’m super curious how it tastes!!

[lulu @velimpurus]

being anorexic and having chronic pain that prevents me from working out makes me feel so inadequate