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cbmi 18.8 gbmi 15 ♡

[rain🍒 edtwt @want2btiny]

🪡 a thread of my fav thinspo
🏷️ edtwt diet cals ana mia kpopedtwt bmi

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i’m going to lose more weight. i’ve been bmi 18.7-19.5 for 10 months now. come on man

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ive been the same weight since january. feels strange to not panic every time i eat more than one meal a day. im so used to fluctuating 15 pounds from restricting to eating whatever i want to restricting etc etc but ive been so normal lately. however its time for me to lock in!

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today one of my students asked me why my legs were so skinny. never give up there is light

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been going 2 the gym lately. it’s quite nice although i just walk, bike, and do the stair thing. half of my “workout” comes from working at an elementary school

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but at the same time i need people to keep noticing. like it keeps me motivated… but i also get stuck on it for the rest of the day. and i’m not that thin… im a few pounds underweight

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nobody talks abt on here even if ur not like bmi 12, ppl irl will still think u r skinny… idk if im just somewhere that people feel comfortable talking abt weight, but i also wish nobody would comment on it. i just feel the need to prove how much tinier i can get.

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and i was talking to a students dad for awhile and i mentioned i have high cholesterol (i dont anymore!!!) and he said “for someone so thin that must mean your diet is really bad” which yes. it is. but sorry for someone so what? 😄

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i also feel like i notice people talking abt my size more. one of my coworkers was making bracelets for the kids and to get the size she said “i need somebody tiny” and used my wrist to measure

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i work at an elementary school and i see like, so many warning signs of ed’s in some of these kids… i’m probably projecting! a girl one day asked me if i eat all 3 meals and what i do to “maintain that perfect figure.” a 7 year old asked me that. i am underweight. im disturbed

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cpr training today and there was one other person excluding the trainer … we had to practice recovery positions and the trainer told the other girl it should be easy cuz i weigh nothing. sometimes life is worth living

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when you’ve been fat long enough your family stop worrying about you relapsing

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this photo… save me this photo

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my dumbass not realizing it’s cuz i was taking my adderall daily… it’s still easy to not eat all day ABUSE THAT MEDICATION!!!!!

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i miss being in hs because it was soooo easy to not eat for a full day. i’ve been doing online college classes and even if i want to fast my parents notice asap </3.

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literally why did i ever stop taking adderall…

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30 reasons why i want to lose weight thread for #edtwt
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i feel like i’m going crazy

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god i hate this cycle of losing and gaining and losing and gaining. i’ve been in a nonstop loop since i was 12 and now im 20. im disordered enough to be deficient in almost all my vitamins and need iron transfusions but not disordered enough to be skinny… im tired

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Damn

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drs office weighs me with my platform docs on and it’s so humbling… i swear im not a whale😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭