@tikopumps@fomo Tiko, I'm working on sth that might interest you -- its about finding where your edge is and cultivating it. DM me if you need more details.
Just read Dostoevsky's The Gambler. A few thoughts -
Dostoevsky is such a master at displaying psychological traits in humans on a level few can even perceive, let alone put into words. What makes it even more fascinating is that the novel's main character, Alexei Ivanovich, is modeled on Dostoevsky himself.
It's a story of how destitute one could become if he isn't careful with the activities one partakes in. It's an obvious illustration from the outside perspective that certain activities bear little to no yield. Yet the story is what gets us going. The story of changing one's life through a single bet. Just the opposite of a sound strategy. But here is the thing - the mind becomes absolutely ungrounded, and even when the win comes, it's short-lived.
It's a trap that even the greatest minds fall into. Dostoevsky himself had his life chased by creditors, for money he'd borrowed to gamble - and The Gambler itself was written under a brutal deadline to escape those very debts. The book diagnosing the disease was written as a symptom of it. Gambling in its purest form. Where the edge is nowhere to be had.
It's a story about perspective. That no one is immune to gambling's alluring characteristics.
I can't help but draw a parallel with the trading world. For most people it's pure gambling. Even for seasoned traders, when emotions run high - and they inevitably do - all strategy becomes obsolete. It devolves into gambling. The moment it becomes gambling for you, where you are desperate to make it back - just stop. Walk away. Give yourself a break. Don't feel too bad either. If geniuses are not immune to this - us mere mortals for sure aren't.