𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖉

ed vent acct | 29 | 5'8 | 18+

[𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖉 @xcviicv]

@minime_x Oh my god I relate to this so much. I kept getting gradually smaller over years so people don't really register it and just see my current size as how I've always looked.

[𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖉 @xcviicv]

My cat needed emergency surgery two weeks ago so I decided to quit using kr*tom (paranoid it makes me too foggy) and then tonight I was crying from shoulder pain and decided to purge. 🤡 fucking dumb

[𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖉 @xcviicv]

@skinnidask3l3tn If you go on astro seek, it'll give you a huge breakdown of your transits and everything. There's also the Time Passages app which is really good for that as well

[𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖉 @xcviicv]

@Skinnym52752761 That's so awesome! 💗💗

[𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖉 @xcviicv]

@recalories There's lots of ways to style this cut in combo with outfits & makeup to look more feminine if you're worried about that!

[𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖉 @xcviicv]

@recalories YES

[Mooniee✨🌜#bIm @SkinnyMooon42]

Having an ED is just consistently bargaining with yourself and doing math

[𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖉 @xcviicv]

@deathorexia Yes

[𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖉 @xcviicv]

@jendeukdiet 4 but male

[𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖉 @xcviicv]

@pikacals Sex worker

[𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖉 @xcviicv]

@skinnidask3l3tn I love your tattoos 💗

[𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖉 @xcviicv]

This is why I learned how to cry silently in the bathroom, so as to never ever disturb anyone with the knowledge that I'm severely anxious and depressed

[𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖉 @xcviicv]

When am I going to learn that I'm not allowed to express feeling anxious to people without them yelling at me and triggering me further

[𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖉 @xcviicv]

Then locking myself in the bathroom, having a flashback to when my mother yelled at me to not use the box cutters to cut myself and I locked myself in my bedroom with her yelling at the door "oh there she goes locking herself in her room again"

[𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖉 @xcviicv]

I didn't realize until last year just how much of my eating disorder and mental illnesses in general were caused or exacerbated by dysphoria, and it's rough feeling this while not being out to anyone (well almost no one)

[𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖉 @xcviicv]

If there are any mentally ill nonbinary adults out there pls can we follow each other, I am strugglinggggg

[𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖉 @xcviicv]

And I make it worse by looking at dudes on tiktok whose face/hair/aesthetic is exactly what I'm striving for so then I get super dysphoric and want to die lmao fun

[𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖉 @xcviicv]

The constant struggle of wanting a sharp masculine jawline but being unable to achieve it because my glands are always swollen from purging so I have a permanent double chin, even at a 17 BMI.

[𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖉 @xcviicv]

I may have purged twice yesterday and once this morning but I ate a small dinner and did not purge so fucking thank god