thank you for staying.
these piano recordings are for you. i hope they feel like somewhere safe to be.
i hope you can relax here ๐
https://t.co/1n1iyEVvP4
Reaching toward something you can't quite name yet.
that's where i've been. and somehow, when i turned around, you were all still here ๐
i wrote a song about that.
next week. thank you for staying. ๐
i've been looking at old photographs lately.
not with nostalgia, exactly. more like i'm trying to work out who that person was. there's a version of me that felt smaller than she needed to. that apologised for taking up space. that wasn't sure she had the right to want what she wanted.
i don't think i'm done with her yet.
but i think i'm growing past her. slowly. without making too much of it. ๐
i come to the trees when i need to hear myself think again.
not to escape. just to let the mind breathe until the thoughts that are actually mine start to rise back to the surface. the quiet ones. the ones that get drowned out everywhere else.
it takes longer than you'd think.
but they always come back. ๐
a leaf landed in my palm this morning and i just stood there.
the world moves so fast that sometimes the only honest response is to stop completely. no agenda. no destination. just this leaf, this light, the weight of something so small it almost doesn't register.
i noticed it.
i hope something lands gently for you today. something small that doesn't ask anything of you except to be here. ๐
i've been thinking about the versions of myself i've already been.
they don't stay. they move on without me, towards something i can't quite see from here. and i stand on the platform and watch them go and i think: yes. that one needed to leave.
i'm still figuring out which train is mine.
but i think i'm getting closer to knowing. ๐
there are moments where everything goes quiet at once.
not calm, exactly. more like the noise stops long enough for you to realise how much of it there was. and suddenly you're aware of all of it at the same time. the uncertainty about what happened. the uncertainty about what's coming. the uncertainty about right now.
it's uncomfortable. and then, strangely, it isn't.
because at least you know what you're actually feeling. even if you can't do anything about it yet. ๐