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🏳️‍⚧️hungey and heartbroken
26 ✮ MDNI ✮ 5’3 ✮ hw 200
gw1 160 ✮ gw2 140 ✮ gw3 120
|Quest is currently 16.25% complete.|

[xosbu @xosbuuu]

don’t even try to get better. not worth it

[xosbu @xosbuuu]

@unknownxolive 120 / 54.5 for me.

we’ll see how i feel when i get there, but i’ve never been quite that low, even as a teen. i just wanna keep my ass yknow 💐

[xosbu @xosbuuu]

like i was drying my hair and folded over for a while, but i can still feel the dents over my hips. guys what the fuck is happening

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sorry to post bush HAHA but i am freaking out a little today. because wtf do you MEAN! i’m almost 25% of the way to my ugw, and this new fold line showed up on my tummy????

[xosbu @xosbuuu]

@ane_in_chains for me it’s like. for a partner i prefer squishy bodies, so i just can’t hate mine anymore, like how i used to when i was a teenager. there is also the growing up and therapy part hehe, but focusing on just my goals and not lamenting over the present is so nice

[xosbu @xosbuuu]

i genuinely feel like i have such a Mature version of my ëdnös right now

i don’t hate myself. i don’t wallow in my ugliness. honestly i think i still look pretty normal

but i know how good it felt to be smaller. and i want that back.

[xosbu @xosbuuu]

@mika_hungrymoth bingo!!!!!!

[cttncndylv @cttncndylv]

@anhedoniagirll “stop promoting eating disorders” i say as i walk into the eating disorder club where everyone has one and already knows the downsides

[bee @salvirubes]

mirror poses i want to recreate when i finally lose weight 🍥

a thread for #edtwt #thinspo

[xosbu @xosbuuu]

@belltwothree for real this is how i ended up at 200 too 😭 it just took like 1-2 years

[bell 𖤓˚࿔ @belltwothree]

is this a safe space to say that the body positivity movement made me feel like me eating 4000+ calories every day was normal because it was “intuitive eating” and “what my body wanted”

[xosbu @xosbuuu]

there’s no shame-driven binges, no crying in the mirror, no words in my skin

just calculated decisions, feeling good about eating under 1200 at least, less is always better

getting addicted to losing again, to watching my actions change my body slowly over time

[xosbu @xosbuuu]

@strawbryxbun HYPOTHETICALLY you would regret it in the bathroom the day after prolly 😭 ask me how i know 🤡

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@DOGB1TES im not usamerican, but regulations are underfunded. overseas wars to control the middle east (STILL) and gold furniture or whatever else is what is being paid for instead

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@dumb_bunny_16 this must be going around edrtwt right now, i just got one too and posted about it !!!!

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i was giving the hacker shit in dms for their scam attempt being literally so pathetic 😭 like ok an exec who hasn’t worked at twitter in 4 years needs me to message him on discord about a basic customer service ticket? sure buddy. weird as hell

[xosbu @xosbuuu]

⚠️ scam alert - @skinnizuccini with 2.7k followers has most likely been hacked ⚠️

i received a DM from skinnizuccini that doesn’t match their typing style and has many warning flags of a phishing scam

please always stay aware online !!

[xosbu @xosbuuu]

tagging the followers in my web @kannarraa @aspartameangel @hearts2mokaa @eatingshiloh @amorafawn

up to you if you want to unfollow the account or not, but i think it is most likely no longer being controlled by the person who made it :(

[xosbu @xosbuuu]

@mika_hungrymoth yeah 🥺 youre right. like if he’s been okay this whole time, then like. cmon man. if he’s been in trouble this whole time, that’s gonna really suck

[xosbu @xosbuuu]

do i come off as crazy? or am i doing what a sane person would do in these circumstances? i just don’t know! sending a letter every 2-8 weeks, when i cry again, just to say “if you hated me you’d tell me right”

[xosbu @xosbuuu]

i think i see it in the width of me from the front/back

from the side it looks very snatched in comparison

[xosbu @xosbuuu]

TW numbers ⚠️

okay you guys validated me on my last post about this so here’s a 360, arms up and first thing in the morning…
do we think i am actually measuring anything wrong? or is it just my thicc thighs 🤣💞💞