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bi || 24 || married || t1d/bpd/bp-II/ednos || WNF: basic dnfs, minors || hw: 250 || cw: 237.4 || ugw: 105 || OMAD + 10k min

[Fallen ࣪ ִֶָ☾. | ↓ -12.6/145 @xoxoFallen]

PSA:
1. if you are misogynistic, racist, or anti-LGBTQIA+, block.
2. edtwt is for all eds. if you bully people w/ mia/bed/ednos, block. we all struggle.
3. anyone making fun of higher intakes, block. i have bills to pay and am chronically ill. i can't afford heavy restriction.

[Fallen ࣪ ִֶָ☾. | ↓ -12.6/145 @xoxoFallen]

Getting a new scale today, someone send me some luck please

[Fallen ࣪ ִֶָ☾. | ↓ -12.6/145 @xoxoFallen]

@ratbebi It has been rough but I'm getting back into routine now!

[Fallen ࣪ ִֶָ☾. | ↓ -12.6/145 @xoxoFallen]

Oh my god finally out of account purgatory. Sorry I've been gone so long y'all

[Fallen ࣪ ִֶָ☾. | ↓ -12.6/145 @xoxoFallen]

@fatbeyondrepair This feels like the worst part of being hsw because I can't even try to talk my way out of feeling this way 😭

[Fallen ࣪ ִֶָ☾. | ↓ -12.6/145 @xoxoFallen]

Ok so I need to lose like 35 lbs in just over a couple of months and then this trip will be fine ⚰️

[Fallen ࣪ ִֶָ☾. | ↓ -12.6/145 @xoxoFallen]

@vyscal I hate to admit it but overeating has historically acted as a form of SH for me. That, and like as a response to trauma and wanting to make myself look "worse" to prevent something from happening again. I know not everyone with binging is the same but it's def not uncommon.

[Fallen ࣪ ִֶָ☾. | ↓ -12.6/145 @xoxoFallen]

I binged myself back up like 10 lbs I'm so done for. I've got like two months until my trip fasting isn't enough atp it's cooked

[Fallen ࣪ ִֶָ☾. | ↓ -12.6/145 @xoxoFallen]

@fatbeyondrepair I uhhh, not gonna lie mostly survive off of diet coke or diet Dr pepper. I usually force myself to drink about 30 oz of water between pops though if I can help it.

[Fallen ࣪ ִֶָ☾. | ↓ -12.6/145 @xoxoFallen]

@aspartameadd1ct I just got a new job, but I work in corporate marketing at a clothing company!

[Fallen ࣪ ִֶָ☾. | ↓ -12.6/145 @xoxoFallen]

Staring at models every day at work is actually driving me crazy. Someone send help ⚰️ fasting isn't enough atp

[Fallen ࣪ ִֶָ☾. | ↓ -12.6/145 @xoxoFallen]

New job is great but working at a clothes company will probably be the death of me. I'm constantly seeing model shoots and I feel so gross

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@razzykcal I remember talking to my husband about my former binging habits and at first he was legitimately like "there's no way you ate that much" 😭 the ways binge eating go under the radar never ceases to amaze me. He's super supportive with my weight loss and a great partner but aaaaaa

[Fallen ࣪ ִֶָ☾. | ↓ -12.6/145 @xoxoFallen]

@razzykcal My relationship with eating out has gotten a lot better but it just feels really like... Revealing? I guess? Binging is no joke and I really applaud anyone who has been able to overcome it.

[Fallen ࣪ ִֶָ☾. | ↓ -12.6/145 @xoxoFallen]

I really really hate to acknowledge it, but does anyone else have intrusive thoughts about a near ancient piece of th1nspo that haunts them to this day 😭

[Fallen ࣪ ִֶָ☾. | ↓ -12.6/145 @xoxoFallen]

Wait does anyone else remember these? I ate them often when I was younger and can't find them and it makes me sad

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@S0ulGhoul I think it's unfortunately in part due to how expensive the low calorie version of most products are (unless you're cooking everything from scratch)

[Fallen ࣪ ִֶָ☾. | ↓ -12.6/145 @xoxoFallen]

@Moon_of_autumn6 Aghhhhh congratulations moot 💜

[Fallen ࣪ ִֶָ☾. | ↓ -12.6/145 @xoxoFallen]

Trying to get better at my hobbies while being in such a steep deficit may very well be the (figurative) death of me lol

[Fallen ࣪ ִֶָ☾. | ↓ -12.6/145 @xoxoFallen]

@DizzyDisorder @razzykcal I agree! I'm sure there are tons of medical uses. It does baffle me a bit though when they say "high protein" and it's like 2 extra grams for double the price 😭I've lucked out and like cottage cheese, tofu, and Greek yogurt... But ik a lot of folks don't