I come from a long line of Russian bakers. That's why my gene pool has vodka and yeast in it.
LCMS 🦬, Geographer, Writer, Swing Dancer.
I wrote a book.
My "favorite" platitude people give to comfort singles is "You are not behind!"
Because yes I am, thank you for your shit advice.
Also "God is preparing you for marriage!"
So why am I almost 40 but someone I know met her husband at THIRTEEN? Was she super prepared?
I honestly don't care. I don't believe them. I don't even want to believe them. Because NOT having something wrong with me? That means my life is supposed to suck this majorly hard. It's easier to blame myself than to blame God. And not many people get that.
I really don't like being me most of the time. I'm so frustrated with being unable to do marketing for my book. I just don't know how to do it in a way that catches people's attention. It was easier when I was a teenager to just write and let people discover it.
I haven't been dancing in months. I was rejected for Christmas Traditions this year so the one thing that I looked forward to was taken away from me. And when people try to make me feel better, "oh, I love you! You're my friend! You're amazing! You have a lot of good qualities!"
I've been so mentally exhausted that I haven't been able to write in months. It's really frustrating. I have my books I want to write but I'm so tired.
This terrible book is even more terrible. This chick is literally changing the axial tilt of the planet (scifi) because we "don't need winter."
Me, a literal geographer who took earth science and biogeography courses: That's not how this works That's not how any of this works.
May pray for peace and a calm spirit for someone suffering from anxiety, and hare Bible verses of God's love and forgiveness instead of telling people they're sinning. But that's no fun when you can yell at a stranger online.
For the record I had a panic attack today and I've been spacy all day, and Im dealing with PMDD so my brain is both spacy and haywire. So thus my weird rants.