xu ruohan x grazia oct ‘26 magazine
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in the interview, xu ruohan talked about the days after wrapping up filming in a very casual tone. after finishing a crying scene, she would sit in place, dazed for a long time, tears falling uncontrollably. “at that moment, it felt like the character and i shared those few months of sorrow or joy”
then the filming crew dispersed, and she forced herself back into reality: waking up early to work out, buying bread, getting a manicure, cutting her hair, and using a pile of trivial matters to pull ‘xu ruohan’ back piece by piece
she said she belongs to the kind of person who ‘escapes, it’s shameful but useful’ but when talking about the characters, she doesn’t seem to be escaping.
she remembers how wen dingyi shook her head, she remembers the small knife mu xiaoshu was toying with in her hand, she remembers that ye pingjun lived in the republic of china era—an era of undeveloped communication and difficult meetings—where once they made up their minds, they would never be separated for a lifetime.
these details are kept by her, like her unique ‘little emotional blocks’, stored in her heart, to be unwrapped when needed.
#xuruohan
🐰: he takes all kinds of photos of us, including li boren and gu ruitong. he changes the polaroid film frames every day. today it’s gold, tomorrow silver, and the day after that, something colorful. it’s really cool. i’ve also learned a lot from him about polaroid cameras and photography in general. he has so many cameras and switches between them every day. he just takes them out and starts snapping pictures of us. he contributed so many polaroid photos throughout the filming of the lament of autumn.
🐺: the cost of all that film has already exceeded the price of the polaroid camera itself.
🐰: oh, he bought so many and he used different ones to take pictures every day.
🗣️: so, who does he take the most pictures of?
🐺: of course, her.
🐰: okay. satisfied.
🗣️: will you share the photos with everyone later?
🐺: one entire photo album wouldn’t even be enough to hold all the photos from the lament of autumn. of course.
🐰: of course, we have so many photos. once we’re done taking them, we’ll split them equally between us. i’ll also have scanned copies. as the drama continues to gain popularity, we’ll gradually share more behind-the-scenes content. so please keep showing your support in the comments. thank you.
the world may be judging her, but she’s still thinking about the people who love and support her. even in a vulnerable moment, this girl is still trying to find her way closer to us, hoping we can see her clearly.
xixi, you don’t have to prove your worth to anyone. we see you, we hear you, and we’ll always be rooting for you. 🤍
pardon me for being repetitive af but i don’t think i could put into words how cheng lei has been gracing every scene in this drama. his authoritarian tone??? his micro expressions??? A MASTERCLASS IN UNDERSTATED ACTING 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
the concept of changxuan going to war thinking he had lost both his wife and child twice while pingjun is gonna go thru another level of suffering with xueting
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“a surprise behind-the-scenes treat! having a blast playing mahjong—definitely had to snap some photos to remember it! ✌️”