he feels so empty without either of those things and why he jumps straight into the next thing that catches his attention. without it he would be nothing
spoke has been shown thinking hes the worst person alive in moments and thinking he's god himself in others and i think its because he just has no stable identity to begin with. his entire identity and self image is always built off of his actions and what people think of him +
instead of the other way around. the other part is his volatile black and white thinking. i believe thats some of the reason why he puts such a big importance on having a purpose or being part of a community because as he sees it he kind of has nothing else for himself. it's why