I struggle with forgiveness, for real. I’ll let things slide and act cool for a while, but then my mind starts replaying everything. Before I know it, I’m mad all over again and don’t even wanna be around you. It hurts, ‘cause I’m the type to ride hard for the people I love. My loyalty runs deep, sometimes too deep. But it’s crazy how your own thoughts can keep you stuck, replaying the pain instead of releasing it. And the whole time, I’m just sitting there thinking, “Why would you even do me like that?”
I'm slowly learning that even if I react it won't change anything. It won't make certain people suddenly understand and respect you. It won't magically change their minds. Sometimes it's better to say nothing and remove yourself from them.
You don’t need a perfect partner. You need someone who can regulate their emotions, admit when they fuck up, & actually sit with uncomfortable conversations without shutting down, flipping it on you, or throwing low blows every time shit gets real.