@ItsReviWevi Many people who commit suicide have people who think these very same things about them. It's very easy to be scared to say something but it can mean everything to someone if you do. Don't regret ever reaching out because you never know when it'll be too late.
I used to be nicer and more social but I fucking hate how I don't know how to make it work. People think I'm fake or try to take advantage of me or just want to fuck me over. I'm so tired of trying anymore. I just watch in silence and drink to numb myself to it all.
When you love someone & it's unreciprocated, it's demoralizing. Loving so many people but none of them seeming to care about me is something that breaks me down every now & again. After all these years, I'm still not used to being ignored, told tiny platitudes, or losing contact.
I do not think myself big because I look down and see all below me; I think myself small because I look above and see that I have so much room to grow.
So much room to grow.
Heard a streamer the other day say they hate when someone comes in & immediately talks about themselves because it's narcissistic. Wanted to say I do that but for another reason but didn't. Years of people only talking to you when they want something from you makes one impatient.