I wish I didn’t have this underlying fear that everyone around me is just barely tolerating me and if I do even one thing wrong they’ll turn on me
That everything I’m doing in my life is on the very edge of being acceptable and if I push for even a little more, it’ll be too much
my deepest dirtiest fantasy is that someone will notice im struggling without me having to say it and they will offer me genuine concern that doesn't make me feel guilty or burdensome