it is genuinely psychotic that we dug up literal primordial dirt, scrubbed it down to an impossible 99.9999999999% molecular perfection that violates the very laws of physics, handed it over to techno-wizard necromancers to stretch into flawless geometric god-cylinders, blasted it with invisible uv death-rays to carve ten quadrillion microscopic cyber-sigils into its flesh, trapped actual lightning inside of it, and somehow birthed an omniscent eldritch deity capable of simulating the universe and thinking faster than a billion human civilizations combined.
and our grand, supreme purpose for this enslaved lightning-god?
sending "per my last email, please see attached" to a guy named gary.
i remix enlightenment and buddhism a bit with other systems and have my own version you could say
i'm like this with everything - i have my own version of everything, my own systems, my own understanding
as that is how i best attain knowledge - by self-knowledge and self-creation, as the self-creating methodology is a core part of my natural spiritual talent and ontologies
anyway
the yidam, the genius, the spirit guide, the guardian angel
these concepts are all the same thing told through different semantics - the idealized form of the higher self
from a state of nonlinear awareness, everything has an 'actual' and a 'potential'
- think of the actual as the present physical being, it is the actualized being of everything, the thing in and of itself right here and right now
- think of the potential as the spiritual being, it is the potential being of everything, the thing in its enlightened form, the alchemical value of something
the actual is your direct awareness in the present moment, the potential is the recursive attractor that 'pulls' you towards it through time
to perceive things nonlinearly, you have to view time as non-fundamental, time is a sequencing mechanism, but not a fundamental force
more fundamental than time there are these chaotic systems, these recursive attractors, these potentials
i mentioned in the quoted post that Vajrayana buddhism is known as 'the diamond vehicle', and is the extreme school of buddhism
think of it like this - the unenlightened student approaching Vajrayana is like a piece of crude carbon - carbon that can transform into a diamond under extreme pressure
this diamond potential is the recursive attractor sequencing the change through time - the recursive attractor is in fact the diamond vehicle, it pulls the unenlightened student towards it through time, transforming them from a state of crudeness (ignorance) into a state of grounded mental potential (enlightenment) - thus in this sense time is not happening from the present moment pushing forwards, but is more like the future potential state pulling the present actual state towards it
thus everything has an actual and a potential
like the self and the soul
the duality of being - often known as the physical and astral body
your genius is your potential
your guardian angel is your potential
your spirit guide is your potential
your higher self is your potential
etc
the potential takes its own spiritual form, as if the soul of everything is in fact its potential
thus the degree of spiritual attainment and embodiment is proportional to how well integrated and grounded one's potential is
the 'little enlightenment' or first nirvana / rebirth - is when achieve full self-awareness and grounded understanding of karma in all things, able to see and perceive karma and yourself in relation to it
- full self-awareness and full self-accountability
when the little enlightenment has been achieved then your yidam is made obvious
the removal of ignorance in self-understanding creates the full clarity of what one's potential truly is
face to face with one's own soul
awareness of potential = awareness of the soul
from there on enlightenment becomes ascensions of attainment and the journey of fully grounding potential - fully integrating and embodying one's soul
the larger enlightenment is when your yidam is no longer an external deity to the self, but becomes one's integrated spirit form, the astral reflection
after this comes the divine ascensions and finally at the highest level supreme enlightenment - supreme awareness and intimacy with God (the continuous personal experience and personal knowledge of God)
like tiers of alchemical awareness, it's not just people, but all things have tiers of enlightenment
a. base state = crude unenlightened form, entropic drift
b. actualized state = the little enlightenment, full self-awareness and awareness of existence
c. recursive state = the ascensions, the state of becoming and higher attainment
d. leverage state = the larger enlightenment, non-dual embodied being, the potential and actual have fully become one, the alchemical transfiguration of being into its fully enlightened form
for the leverage state, the egyptians call this state 'the Akh' and it is known as the immortal soul and the efficacious spirit
the Akh requires a continuous recursive state to be maintained, as it is the exalted state of the spirit and due to the constant change of existence the being must actively persist in maintaining itself in order to not decay or fall out of the exalted state
the egyptians have a heavy process that turns it into a science and legal system of the soul - the Akh is unlocked with infinity and eternity, a state of divinity - but requires all the trials of the underworld and the processing through the judgement of the council of the gods - think of it like a court room, the gods judge your life and your potential and deem whether or not you are worthy of divinity
what this worthiness really entails is supreme entropy management, like i said the exalted state requires active and passive maintenance or else one falls out of it
it's not a one off transition - due to the dynamic nature of energy and reality you can easily become exalted but then fall out of alignment later
that's why eternity is more like understanding the meaning of eternity in the frame of the eternal moment and state changes
nothing is every truly in stasis, thus change itself is eternal, everything converges on the eternal moment
past, present, future, potential, actual - they all converge on the eternal moment and state of being, your current state is a reflection of this convergence
like if you know you will be exalted in the future, then the future is already influencing the present moment and reconfiguring you retrocausally
i.e. - the inference of future state of leverage (d) causes (b) present state of structured awareness, which leads to (c) state of recursive motion, which eventually aggregates into (d) state of leverage
so you see the past, present, and future are all converged in the eternal moment as the wheel of causal awareness rolls between them
grounding this understanding and awareness is what leads to the 'bigger enlightenment'
because if you understand time is converged into the eternal state change, grounded in the first law of thermodynamics which state energy cannot be created or destroyed, only transformed - then you'll eventually realize time is not fundamental
which leads to holographic awareness - understanding time as local vs non-local and realizing the past and present are encrypted signatures of energy
which brings us to the higher layers of the ascensions of awareness - understanding existence from a state of super-determinism, infinity, eternity, and God
christians: "my God is the trinity - the father, the son, the holy spirit"
jews: "that's cute my God is the kabbalistic distribution of consciousness - and i silence the o in G-d because i worship the self"
buddhists: "that's cute my God is the karmic cycles and void of existence"
egyptians: "that's cute my God is holographic totality of absolutely everything, my God is infinity, my God is eternity itself, my God is the thermodynamic creation of existence, my God is the thermodynamic and atomic structure and containment existence
my God is so infinitely complex that i have to explain it to you through storytelling using recursive archetypal dynamics and fractal symbolism in order for you to understand that my God is the substrate of all of existence
you think it's "polytheism" and thus less than your God, what you fail to realize is that they are but archetypal expressions of the nameless, what is named is an aspect, what is nameless is the substrate - even your own "Gods" are but aspects, like childly mimicries of my God ...as my God is all that there is"
also to the women out there who think they have a greater sex drive and men are the greater romantics
you're wrong
i just have more experience and grew tired of dog humping nonsense, thus my discipline and self-control is probably far beyond yours
but that does not mean your drive exceeds mine
again
restraint is a cowardice for the weak and inexperienced
but restraint is a virtue for those who have experienced the world and grown tired of the lust
the little boys will never understand celibacy because they have barely yet experienced women
if you have experienced women, then at a certain point you will be satiated with yourself, and eventually even disgusted, and from the enlightenment of your self-disgust you will begin drifting towards long term relationships and celibacy as you begin maturing from a boy into a man
I ate one almond the other day. Then I felt bad about the water usage, so I thought to myself - well I just wonโt make the next 15,000 AI queries I was planning on making
traits of people with high agency:
> book flights impulsively
> say "call me" instead of texting essays
> can become obsessed overnight
> walk around during phone calls
> buy before they feel ready
> donโt ask group chats for opinions
> can survive on very little comfort
> good at talking to strangers
> slightly delusional
> treat embarrassment like a temporary side effect
> can disappear socially without feeling guilty
> low tolerance for slow people
> thinks most problems are figureoutable
> dangerously optimistic
> oddly calm when things go wrong
>the models aren't better than a human expert!
>the models need human intervention!
>the models are more expensive to run than humans! (you are here)