Hope Estella

Edinburgh Library girl who writes, loves books, food and cats.

Represented by @sileloquies

[Hope Estella @HopeWhitmore]

1/ When my wonderful baby was born in July, weighing three and a half lbs, I started having terrible thoughts

[Hope Estella @HopeWhitmore]

@Edinburgh_CC pedestrian lights on London Road taking over ten
minutes to go green today and giving lanes of cars six turns each before pedestrians @livingstreets

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It’s been going on for several days. Happy to send screenshots but as email and phone compromised not sure how?
Messages on WhatsApp now threatening.

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@arvonfoundation hello, just to let you know you have been hacked on your phone and email.

I contacted you on email and got a dodgy thing asking me to transfer money to a random account, caller Totleigh Barton and left a voicemail and started getting WhatsApps from the scammers

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@Edinburgh_CC hello, the pedestrian traffic lights at the top of Regent Road and Abbeyhill are broken. Had to cross with my two year old this morning and it was scary x

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@TedNeath @oi_tillymint @StuartJRitchie It actually really screwed up my mental health, and meant I got no sleep (literally none) for several weeks of my babies life and ended up admitted to hospital as a result.

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@RosieMacLeod4 Thank you so much xx

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A very short story, written sort of like a poem,

https://t.co/3oiA6loEyZ

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@Sheree_Trifle Thank you x

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first poem/story in ages

https://t.co/3oiA6loEyZ

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@rhiannonlucyc On Thursday we wear pink.

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@Sheree_Trifle Thank you so much xx

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I wrote a poem called Bill, about the nurse, who wasn't called Bill, who taught me to wash my son in the Mother Baby Unit, when I was scared I would drown him.

https://t.co/Lo1cbmPUVr

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@TalkingAboutBPD Thank you so much xx

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@ToryaWinters Thank you xx

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@Miff__ Thank you xx

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@frecklesbaybeee @drruthannharpur I lost a lot of blood and never made enough milk. I was made to feel horrible about that.

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@TalkingAboutBPD Thank you so much, this message means a lot xx

[Hope Estella @HopeWhitmore]

1/ When my wonderful baby was born in July, weighing three and a half lbs, I started having terrible thoughts

[Hope Estella @HopeWhitmore]

12) I love my child passionately, Of course I want to be the Cool Mum for him, but there is nothing cool about this frantic, crazy love. It's terrifying and I'd do anything for him, and that's not beatific, it's huge and it's everything.

[Hope Estella @HopeWhitmore]

1) I have a theory that there is a huge pressure to be a Cool Mum, and it's very like the Cool Girl Amy describes in Gilliam Flynn's Gone Girl, just the mum version

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11) I know she's a lie now, though sometimes I glimpse her in a coffee shop or in the park, and sometimes I appear to be her, and relish the approving smiles of strangers even as I know it's a lie.