⠀i became good at pretending. i became so good that after a while the lines blurred between my truth and fiction. and sometimes, when i did a really good job of pretending, i even fooled myself.
i will always have nightmares of that day. no matter how much time has passed,i will always remember. the nightmares will never allow me to forget. i will never allow myself to forget.
everyone’s gonna abandon me once they realize how fucked up and ruined i am and they’ll hate me as much as i hate me. i will fix this by ghosting and avoiding and isolating and pushing them away and leaving first so no one can do that
- super normal and well adjusted person