This is free advice from an expensive psychologist. If youโre an anxious person, do everything for fun. Go to a job interview for fun. Submit documents for fun. Start a blog for fun. Anxiety feeds on importance. Donโt make everything a matter of life and death.
A tenured neuroscientist died by suicide after false accusations against her led to discrimination against her incl breaking up her research team, reassigning her grants to other faculty & ultimately closing her lab after she was exonerated making it impossible for her to apply for future funding according to the complaint. After the investigation was closed & she was exonerated the university allegedly continued discriminating against her. โcut her salary for lack of funding of her research during the NIH investigation, raised new requirements she had to meet to restore her funded status, gave her only a limited chance to meet them, and refused to assign back to her a prior grant that had been taken away from her but was still active."